Losing my interest in reading

I used to love Cecelia Ahern's masterpiece.
Sidney Sheldon. Lang Leav. Mitch Albom.

But since awhile ago my love has faded altogether with a person.

The joy we shared through the favourite books causes me to feel badly hurt when I tried reading a new book.

I thought I moved on.

Again, I dont blame. But I'm just ranting on why should I lose appetite to a delicious kind of books??

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Pesan Abah- Penny in your pocket

[Penny in your pocket]

Masa saya nak pindah sekolah dulu, roommate saya Nurra pesan.. "what you give is belongs to you forever"

Zaman belajar dulu, rajin baca buku.. dan terbaca kata2 Abbas asSisi, "Memberi, dengan apa yang kita ada".

Waktu mula kerja, abah selalu pesan, "duit dalam poket kita ni, bukan semestinya kita punya. Ada rezeki orang.."

Dlm satu tazkirah umum Ustaz Issam, dia pesan.. "biarlah waktu kita sedekah tu, kita niatkan agar Allah mudahkan kita buat baik dan tinggalkan larangan Allah".

Baru2 ni pun abah pesan.. "bersedekahlah.. kadang dengan sedekah tu Allah bagi kita kesihatan, boleh kerja, boleh beribadah. Cuba kalau kita tak sedekah, Allah ambil dengan cara lain-kita sakit, terpaksa keluarkan duit. Waktu rasa susah nak bagi tu, lawanlah, dengan memberi.

Jangan harap orang ganti apa yang dia ambil dari kita. Allah akan ganti yang lagi baik-persaudaraan, kebaikan yang banyak.. Duit dalam poket kita ni, bukan kita punya.. Allah bagi melalui kita, pandailah kita nak urus amanah tu."

Tu je nak kongsi ape abah cakap, takut lupa.
Kadang2 kita terlepas peluang nak dengar miracles dari ibu abah kita...

Btw tak semestinya kaya baru nak memberi. Sape yg tak biasa memberi waktu dia biasa2, takkan mungkin memberi waktu dia ada.

Nota kaki: Sekarang ramai yg excited post FB pasal tabungan duit ikut warna duit.
Yang sebenarnya- tak rasa berdosa ke kalau sedara mara yg dlm fb tu teringin nak pinjam pastu kita cakap xde, padahal sibuk tayang duit simpanan?
Alahai dunia siberr

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Overworked

Sometimes I feel like my head burned up as a result of working

Can i please photocopy myself to two, and do the best quality of work, always?

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What does it feels to be senior at work

"My junior sucks. Me better."

Thats what I thought, being a senior resident (apa seniornye, setahon je lebihnye)

Tak paham kenapa junior tak boleh berusaha sekuat kita. Walhal kerjanya malah lebih mudah sebab ada kita yang bimbing.

Aku salah ajar ke?
Rasa tak ikhlas?

Nope.
I just need to stop making expectation. Nobody is live just to meet my expectation, me neither.

If he's stupid, teach him until he'll be able to do it, no matter what.

You just dont give up, Ashikin.
And stop whining over something if you dont want to change it.
Kalau tak nak ajar, tinggalkan. Biar dia resign kalau dia nak. Kalau betul nak ajar, nak bagi orang pandai, nak hasilkan orang lain yg sama2 bermanfaat, bimbing dia. Buat betul2.

Take it or leave it.

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Crying and calming remedy

Being adult, I have much more to cry of.
Sometimes you cried out of nothing.

I felt sad that someone I cherish falls out of marriage- its the second time someone I know around my age do that when myself don't even know who will be my spouse.

Learning from other's failure, they told me few advices in Marriage that sounds like; "Dont just let someone choose your spouse for you- you gotta check whom youre getting married with"

And
"Perkahwinan adalah untuk berlumba agar saling membahagiakan. Its unfair if someone give too much and the others are just take too much"

And- a simple call helped me regain my calmness- should I marry  someone who made me calm?

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Jalan nan asing

Jalan nan asing itu, memenatkan
Aku pula harus belajar menelusurinya
Langkah demi langkah
Setapak demi setapak

Kadang bimbang tersalah arah
Kadang bimbang terluka sendiri
Kadang bimbang terlukakan orang

Namun apa yang penting,
Sesukar mana pun,
jiwa mesti dikuatkan
Supaya mampu fokus
Untuk sampai ke destinasi sebenar.

Penat, tapi memadai.

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Rindu terhenti.

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Happy Birthday to both Mother

This is belated post of birthday wishes to both my mother & my best aunt everr😘😘😘

Bought my auntie handbag as a present today, and get her to choose the handbag herself. She is obviously happy and I am so much happier for it!

And for my ibu, everything is like.. I dont know what to give as I want to give her everything! She is selfless and she'll feel like she burdened us with something where its actually okay to us!

Maybe handbags too.. or luggage?

Sometimes she need everything but at the other time she just want nothing.

Love them both endlessly 💖

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Show me how to fight for now

Most of the time I felt fragile..being by myself.

Growing as adult is super hard.
I have become someone I dislike, fragile and mad.

I  at a low point, again. And feeling bad.



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Auntie Khadijah

I was stunned into knowing she chosed being Khadijah because Muhammad loves her more.

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Tuning into a fine adult

Fine adult does fine , thats what I thought about myself.

But sometimes I think I've become someone I myself hate, someone I dont want to be.

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Malaikat kehidupan

Pagi ini saya berpeluang mengikuti pengisian usrah bersama kak Fatimah Adi, Mempelajari Qur'an seawal usia.

And in this circle I am the only single lady whereas everyone is having thunderstorm with babies. Program berjalan dengan malaikat2 kecil terjah sana terjah sini, kejap nak makan kejap nak duduk depan kamera (kakak cikin cantik jaga video). And these mamas wont frown at all!

Perkongsian kak Fatimah memang superb.. which malaikat kecil ni membuatkan ibu lebih fokus dengan setiap perkembangan anak.. lebih solehah, mungkin?

Makin banyak baca Qur'an, makin banyak baca buku, lebih kuat berusaha..

Btw below is the tips by kak Fatimah;
1. Perdengarkan anak dengan alQura
2. Jadikan rumah spt tadika(banyak playboards, flash cards)
3. Plan hafalan anak- senarai surah, checklists long term&short term
-kategorikan surah (kfatimah dahulukan surah yg ada background haiwan sebab anak2 minat dgn haiwan)
4. Waktu tasmik: sebelum tidur, sebelum tunaikan permintaan anak (ice cream)..
Ulang sebelum anak tidur..
5. Jangan bagi direct youtube kat anak.. download sendiri kemudian batu bagi kat anak. Disiplinkan masa.
6. Taaruf kebolehan anak..sebab tak ada fixed method untuk setiap anak yang berlainan.
7. Rumah mesti ada bahan-komputer, printer, scanner
8. Hafalan waktu Travelling
9. Ulangkaji dan pelbagaikan aktiviti
10. Bekerjasama deengan ahli keluarga
11. Bercerita kisah al-Qur'an

MasyaAllah.. bila Allah nak bagi rezeki dapat anak ni.. hehe.. Moga Allah rezekikan kita dengan anak soleh!



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Kurita

Not referring to Octopus, Kurita is a name of my former boss in Kintetsu, my former workplace.

Since these two workplace is just around the corner, Its hard to separate them. I love both deugro & Kintetsu deeply, regardless of their financial& political issues, simply because they are where I spent my life.

Today marked my 1 year with deugro, and last month was Kurita's birthday I promised to give him some papaya but too bad it is not in season now. So I happen to give some mangosteen I brought from kampung.

We have lunch and talked a lot about business. And.. he still bragging about how good I was in the past. Too good, he says, that I can manage to solve everything given to me. Sad, I feel sad that nobody tell me the same in the past that I too, deeply happy with KWE.

Kurita san is leaving & going back to Japan next month.

I have never been up close in person since I left KWE.. as it will never be the same me.

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Loving some hard-working man

Dalam hidup ini saya amat menghargai orang yang kuat berusaha.

Dan berharap bahawa suatu hari nanti cinta saya jatuh kepada orang yang sentiasa berusaha dalam hidupnya.

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Kalau saya lecturer Logistics

Kalaulah ada rezeki jadi lecturer satu hari nanti kan.. dan pada masatu FB masih lagi relevan, ni ha tugasan aku nak bagi kat student

1. Up status pasal logistics kat FB setiap hari sepanjang semester, Wajib ada 100 like s & 5 shares untuk setiap post. Post2 mestilah pasal isu berkaitan Logistics, Vessel & Carriers issue, Trucks, airlines, shipment, and any related.

2. Buat assignment traveling dan dokumentasikan perjalanan. Amik gambar dan ceritakan isu2 berkaitan pengangkutan sepanjang perjalanan tu.

3. Senaraikan nama2 lebuhraya kat Malaysia, tahun pembinaan lengkap, isu2 pembinaan lebuhraya.

4. Containers specification- jenis2 containeryg digunakan worldwide pastu buat quiz open book. Sape xdapat markah penuh kene repeat paper (bapak kejam giler)

5. Road limitation - apa lebar dan tinggi maksimum yang dibenarkan kat Malaysia & standard global limit.

6. Safety at ports

7. Buku skrap jenis2 lori dan namanye, berserta gambar dan kalau ada sejarah lagi bagus

8. Senaraikan 50 company yang berkaitan dengan logistics, transport & freight forwarding berserta background company.

9. Mock Interview

10. Sales Assignment- how to sells service.

Sape tak pass paper Ms Ikin boleh repeat next year, Welcome on board & please enjoy the ride,

You are going to have long journey so be prepared everyone!



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The sweet side of myself

I dont know if I have a sweet side because I maybe knows myself well that nobody else only know few side of me.

I like giving my time to others, as much as I enjoy being by myself.

When I have some money, I spend it carelessly for others and I felt less-worried for the money that already gone.

When I have books, that I finished reading, I gave it away-even if the book is having some deep extraction to me. I only keep books that I have as presents from someone else.

I like remembering birthdays of my close friends, family, co-workers. It have become my habit. And wish them kindness.

I love checking on my siblings & close buddies whether they are doing okay.

I rarely refuse when someone asking for help.

I win heart carelessly and I didn't say it out loud if I like someone so much. I'll just keep it to myself. There's a time when it is a little too late when I poured my heart content but that's just a part of being human.

I am sometimes too optimistic.

And most people think I am an honest, sweet young lady.

Kbai. Kemanisan menjadi hamba, hanya dapat dirasai ketika kita menghambakan diri, hanyasanya kepada Dia.

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Teaching an interns

Its been four days since AK comes to deugro as interns, and I've been assigned to teach him things.

The experience I got during my days in MM & teaching interns was not enough. I am not patient enough to teach a newbie. I kept losing tempers as interns are stubborn who think they are at right, they think they should be given easy tasks only and they take internship as a honeymoon-take it for granted.

On second day i teach this guy incoterms, i was scolded by my boss, saying its unnecessary.

And I really think Lee Kee is much better at guiding and teaching someone else even letting me knows something when she is at ease to me. She is much more annoying at everything but she is good at teaching someone, at least.

I told this guy babystep and he didn't perform as what I requested, thats one point to made me felt pissed off. Especially when he didn't even know what is "slash" and "dash" on the keyboard. I dont mind if his knowledge about work is poor but at least please know how to write an email & made effort to know everything on that damn keyboard!!

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Confession

Its been second time I've been confessed to. Maybe third, maybe fourth, maybe fifth.

This time was by someone who did it twice. Who asked for clarification, some word. I, without hesitation again, said I didnt feel the same way.

Strangely, all these confessions come either at the wrong time or by the wrong person. When will they feels right, cikin?

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Bunda dan ikea

I love her....endlessly. Ibuku.

I got to steal ibu from abah today... ibu longs to visit ikea so much that she dreams about it. Whenever shes been to someone's luxurious house, shes been into details of what they are using that their house looks perfect. She brags about things that sometimes i pity her so much (sometimes i dont, too) because she dont have much chance in her life to do and have what she wants.

Well I just wanted to brags that today I made her dream come true by driving her to IKEA Damansara! Spent about 140 for her and her happy face is super priceless (even though we came home with Abah's long face).

Idk how good am i as a daughter but I wanted myself to make great effort to be a sweet girlto my parents&to show my gratitude of having them as my parents

Abang Amin

He is the most annoying brother I had & most honorable one too.

I dont know what it is but he managed to stay humble all the time in his life that I respect him so much as a sister.

Stay kind, funny, humble & nice, Abang Amin.
Your sister Nora loves you so much (when you start working& do something in life).

I dont hate you when you are jobless but I was so geram you did nothing. 😬

Wayang

Sejak keluar cerita AADC2 kat wayang haritu ade la jugak terniat nak pegi ziarah panggung wayang...

Disebabkan perangai suka bertangguh ikin pastu kin takde duit nak tengok wayang, maka tak adalah ziarah panggung... lagipun boleh je tengok kat tivi kat rumah samvil bergolek2 plus cerita tu tak best pun. Puisi dia je yang bikin gua tak tidur malam (hahahaha aku gadia puisi).

Pastu malam tadi gi halaqoh makcik cakap pasal 4 prinsip yg mesti dipegang (ciri dnt im):
1. Mengelakkan tempat yg mengundang fitnah (parking kat depan kedai sports toto judi, misalnya)
2. Mengelak dari bergaul dengan orang berpengaruh (?)
3. Menjauhi parti politik
4. Tak ingat

So cikin takyah lah eh pegi wayang tu takde apapun..

Kin berenti tengok wayang lepas baca buku Cinta di rumah IHAB

Menghantarmu dengan senyuman

Seorang sepupu abah telah meninggal dunia. Inna lillahi wainna ilaihi rojiun..

Pakcik yang sangat baik. Senyum..

Nora datang nak hantar pak cik balik.
Selamat berehat, Amiseh.

Amiseh yang meninggal, tapi yang masih hidup inilah yang mengingatinya-kematian.

Suatu hari nanti, Nora ingin dihantar pulang dengan senyuman juga..

The vacancy

Position: life partner
Location: my life
Company: me

Haaai I'm looking for a life partner to keep me company.

I felt bored to just under/outgoing this life adventure by myself. Can you please pop out and be with me in every pictures we have to take?

"The vacancy that sat in my heart is a place that now you hold"; bak kate pak haji al ustad justin.

Banyak

Tangan terasa begitu mengada-ngada untuk menulis malam ini. Walhal saya sudahpun uninstall Blogger apps yang memudahkan saya untuk selalu menulis. Kali ini saya mencuba apps Blogaway yang entahkan apa prestasinya.

Hari ini saya mengajar sepupu kecil, menemaninya membaca dan membuat kerja sekolah. Lantas teringatkan diri saya yang dulu, seusia dia, tidak pernah dimarahi meskipun tidak membuat kerja sekolah- kerana tak faham kenapa ada "kerja sekolah" yang buat di rumah. Mengajar tetap menambah ilmu tentang siapa kita sungguhpun ia hal yang sangat remeh-anehnya rasa ya Allah..

Semalam.
Usai menghadiri majlis rumah terbuka di rumah Auntie Ha, saya terlanggar seekor anjing yang berlari melintas jalan - sampai sekarang tidak saya tahu apa nasibnya. Maafkan saya yaAllah.. Mungkin anjing malang itu masih hidup- sebab ia tiada di tempat kejadian semasa saya berpatah balik untuk mencari nombor plet yang tertanggal. Tidak ada darah pun di tempat kejadian, cuma skirting kereta saya pecah sedikit.

Sebelum raya.
Saya menziarah Cikgu Adam dan anaknya di HKL sehari sebelum raya. Sempat kami berbual panjang tentang kehidupan. Apabila saya menziarah pendidik, kami tidak pernah terlepas membincangkan perihal generasi dan sistem pendidikan yang berubah-ubah ibarat sarkis.

Berhentilah bersedih.
Kesedihan, hanya membuat manusia kehilangan jiwa dan putus asa. Sedangkan Allah sentiasa Ada untuk memberi harapan bahawa Dialah sandaran terbaik.

Maafkan daku, Allah.

Someone I long to meet

Theres someone I long to meet again in my life.

I said "long", because we have zero possibility to meet again.

She is someone who encourage me to face this world bravely and stop wavering around. She is Shu Min, the person I met in Turkey.

When I was assigned to travelling around Turkey, I was like commenting I will be alone. And she said, "made friends along the way then".

I did not miss anyone else from my journey more than I missed her. I really hope that she finds light in Islam.

Sick

Today i got malnutrition problem as I diagnosed myself. Hahahahaha.

I felt super dizzy starting the moment I step out of the office, feeling like I am going to throw up and will collapse. And the traffic then was terrible, I have to drive aboit 1 hour going back home when usual transit time was always 15 minutes.

I did not  know whats going wrong with me but I rest well once arrived home and now I am wide awake at 1 am in the morning.

Good luck Nora~

Argument?

From day to day now and lately I have few conversations with my multi-cultural friends whose belief is different than mine.

Boss
Today I was asking my boss if its normal for their community to change their name when they get married.

The conversation dragged to the topic of how far human preferred to change themselves, the LGBT issues and how he would want me to accept the fact of human have the right to choose what they wanted to be.

Its long conversation I cant be imprinting all here but as summary, I stated clearly that man and woman are made on purpose. Adam are longing for Eve even he was in heaven. And if everyone if lesbos and gays, we cant produce next generation, and all the "rights" he was bragging about will just causes terrible social problems!

They probably dont have anything better to do.

Ling & JY
On my birthday I got two lovebirds invited me for ifthar or so-called dinner with birthday cake surprise!

So while waiting for the time he was asking why we have kurma for break-fast and I said it is sunnah. The prophet Muhammad Sollallahu alayhi wasallam teachings. So I explain what sunnah is, as following what your prophet do and you got a point. In the midst of explaining, for easier understanding I was asking what his belief and so he said he is Christ.
I said that Christ(Jesus) is also a prophet, the second last one before Mohammed.
Adam is the first, Mohammed is the last.

He then asked, who is second?
I then told the story about Idrees, the first person who taste death &relive, look through hell & now live in heaven.

Alhamdulillah I could explain clearly about Islam to my friends. May Allah forgive me if I did mistake in the explanation.

Chan
He asked the same thing about Sunnah. And what alQur'an and hadith are. He argued about why Allah has told Ibrahim to slaughtered his son Ismaeel and then replace it with animals afterward - which this also happens in Christianity. He felt that it ia not a right thing that if God is too powerful why does He not just easily take your soul away?

And I told him if you are too good cant you just call a chicken when you longs for it and it is now suddenly cooked in your plate?? (We were eating by the conversation)

I admit that it is a little bit hard to explain but in the end I told him that the fact we are just a slave, we obliged to obey what God have instruct us to do - who we are to object what God wanted us to do??

We are in the same ship
All these wonderful person I'm writing about are logical person. We are logisticians so we think of "how things move".

May Allah guide us all towards a great measures of human civilization- the faith to no one but Allah.

Wiser me

Haaai readers~~
This is Ashikin!

She is looking forward to get married~~
And grow wiser as she grows older!

She is ready to accept more and more challenges in life,
Grows more and more wrinkles,
Makes more and more friends&families,
Ships lots and lots shipments,
Giving more and more gifts,
And receive lots of love😍!

All the tears

Menangis,
Menangis,
Dan menangis.

Semasa kecil dan masih bayi, menangis adalah hal pertama yang dilakukan, kerana itu sajalah yang kita tahu agar kemahuan kita dimengerti. Sakit, lapar, ingin perhatian. Tangisan kita kuat agar dengan segeranya keperluan kita terpenuhi.

Semasa sudah pandai bercakap, menangis tidak lagi menjadi bahasa komunikasi. Kita disuruh pula jangan menangis.. dan belajar menyatakan permintaan- sungguhpun selalunya permintaan tak terpenuhi, atau dimarahi kerana menyatakannya.

Setelah dewasa, kita mula belajar menangis sendirian, atas segala kepayahan yang tidak dikongsi. Kita mula menangis diam-diam, dalam tafakur, di pembaringan, di layar penulisan- kerana mengekspresikannya terasa menjelakkan.

Kadang kita lupa. Mata kita juga mampu senyummm

-Sincerely me who is losing it on 20th June 2016

Blissful birthday

Happy birthday, Ashikin!

I am 23 y.o. this year and always.

I felt blessed that this year my birthday falls on weekend and its during Ramadhan. Felt like combos, for the gathering we had and the time I spent with my brothers and mum.

May I grow a lot wiser & obedient to Lord, and may this year I meet with a candidate of a good spouse & partner.

Starting of today, I will always cherish my siblings no matter how bad the condition, how hard the time, how difficult the trials could be. I wanted to be with them. I wanted to believe them truly, support them no matter what.

Lets just celebrate every moment & keep your true spirit, Norashikin!

Lepaskanlah belenggumu, raihlah kemerdekaan

Menyambut ulangtahun ke 26 yang bakal tiba minggu depan, saya akan mula membuat perubahan yang banyak buat diri sendiri.

1. Menutup blog ini dan memulakan naskhah baru.
2. Menukar apa yang patut dalam hidup ini
3. Jadi lebih fokus dan lebih rajin jaga solat dan baca alQur'an.

Sekian.

"Menulis tidak pernah memalingkan jiwa dari kebijaksanaan"

Stupidity

You may not obliged for what you dont know.
But sometimes your negligence troubling others could be called "stupidity"

So, learn lah wei!

When my friend did this to me

I have nothing to lose.

Today I got invited for lunch treat with customer and this customer told me that my close ex-colleague is now working as so and so at lalala place.

I was annoyed to my own dismay.. because I heard it from someone else!

Blergh.

I felt the same way when someone I treat as best buddies send her wedding invitation through Facebook. Disappoinment, betrayed.

Please be happy with your life and thank you, for whatever you did to me.

May that wrapped well

I officially closed the month successfully without too much hassles.

I managed to report all the shipment very well and on time.

It is a real deal-super busy month with double workloads and it made me feels busier than ever because our ops dept is occupy with only 1 person.

And. I want to thanks to my ex-boss cum mentor, UmmiMM for what she taught me when I was working with her: Filing attitude.

Recently my current boss shows that he impressed with my work and how I keep tracked record of my work & the filing manners that he want me to imprint this discipline to the new colleague.

5 hardest thing to me as an adult

Probably I should write a post for every point.

5. Catching up with my parent
I honestly feels sad that I feel distant with my parents sometimes. It is either me changing myself or my parents or we are not in rhytmic-chanhing sense. I sometimes feels that my parent doesnt love me much - even sometimes I feel I dont know my parents 😢.

They are way too much in helping others and their house felt stuffed with so many people I dont even know -strangers- that they keep making all new friends and bring them home-heck, I always feels that my parent arent like anybody else in the world. They are kind but in a very weird way I cant take it!! These are why they always being taken advantage of- I cant helps myself feeling lose-faith-in-humanity.

4. Getting married
I wouldnt know why this should be a point. I just wrote what crossed my mind now.

I (think) I did everything to get myself ready to this point but WHENEVER someone mention marriage to me I take it as a JOKE or I LAUGH.

I spend/save money, I go to marriage-prep seminars, read parenting books & articles, pray..

But honestly, deep down, I am not mentally prepared. I am not serious looking for a spouse.

I just look for 2 things in a person: 1. Full-effort(kuat berusaha& tak mudah putus asa) and faithful(beriman dan dipercayai).

To my surprise, I felt annoyed when muslimah solehah  sedunia who is really corteous before marriage suddenly updates statuses in Social Media once she gets married about all the activity with her new man. I was like, "reallyy???" Where the heck will be your special moment you secretly share together? Just stay mysterious and special in your own way. Dulu doa kat Allah sesenyap, sekarang doa kat Facebook??

3. Refuse to ANY business attraction.
Mann... Nowadays my friends from whatever levels I've been in has chosen to be their own boss. Say, they sell tudungs I bought tudungs. They sell kacang I bought kacang. They sell beauty products I bought!!

I seriously need to help myself.

2. Commit to jayy
Whoever knows will know what I mean. I have been less commited to jay's program for a year now. I dont know what is the reason but I feel really less sense of belongings to this jay nowadays. I still commit to weekly meeting but not monthly, nor annually. I feel down, (and maybe annoyed) that they only contact me to go to program but not to know who am I. I felt damn lonely- guess I lose my direction?

1. Finish reading a good book.
Be it physical or e-book, both are really hard to finish reading now. I have to be in my car to read through last completed Mitch Albom's piece, For One More Day.
Paulos book has been in my porch for almost a year now. Kesian.

Luckily, and at least, I still write in my good and bad times. This is the only way I express my thought. The only time I hope I doesnt escape myself. Sometimes it feels so painful that writing reminds me a lot of things I want to forget but I keep writing, just because this is my stage of life I dont wanna lose track on.

The week fucked up

I was having fun the whole week.

On Monday, my airline dept put bombs on me when cargo to BKI was partially delivered and I was chased like hell for cargo status the whole day. That was for shell and issue resolved on Wednesday. Also, yokogawa shpmt almost did not able to catch the ship on time and luckily all went well once container arrived to port.

Tuesday to Thursday, I was playing Chase and run for KIPP where KN almost screwed up my shipment to Turkey when I need to bluntly talk to each person in charge from 4 departments about pickup cargo, pickup empty container, stuffing cargo into container, payments, delivery of laden container, customs clearance..... We are way behind closing hours and still lucky to make it on board for today's vessel. That was for samsung.

Friday,  the alstom, mmc, akzo nobel. This week is like a playing time with all the players in industry on the ground.

It is almost month closing so I have 10 files stacked up on my table and did not have time to peek onto it yet.

It feels tiring but it was so much fun to be able to catch up with allll the stress and most importantly to solve the problems without sending them away to my boss or to someone else.

deugro made me bravely face obstacles & have the courage to solve the problems instead of hoping for someone else to cover for me, like the mistake i did in the past when i was so naive. At least my bullying boss and that fatty colleague is made my life hard to teach me valuable things that i feel so thankful now.

The thing deugro taught me is, Made it possible to move the cargo, think of every possible pro & cons exist, and do not have fears!

Fucked up week are not-so fucked-up. Its pay-day!😃😃😃😃

Omo. And another thing today, i have 1 shipment been working on the rates for 2 months and today the shipment executed. How lucky!

And I gone through this with super problematic email connection problemss that i need to keep telling my customer that I had email problem. This is so depressing when it sounds like i gave a damn excuses!

Yeah, what a week!

Perempuan gila kerja

Semasa membuat keputusan memilih deugro, ia adalah kerana 3 perkara:

1. Boss saya suka bekerja dengan orang muda
2. deugro menghargai sumber manusia (hires & create talents)
3. Syarikat ini sedang membangun (its developing & expanding) maka haruslah memberi saya begitu banyak peluang untuk menumbuh dan belajar.

Walaupun begitu banyak payahnya, banyak juga kebahagiaan yang saya dapatkan dalam bekerja. Sekurang-kurangnya boss saya talkative macam talking machine dan saya masih boleh pissed him off. Terasa macam ada team bila kita complementary dalam office. Ada masalah sama-sama selesaikan. Orang banyak cakap tak banyak simpan rahsia dan simpan masalah dalam hati. Kalau saya buat salah, terus kena tegur dan kemungkinan mengulangi kesilapan sangat tipis.

Pendek kata, tak macam sebelum ni yang kata-kata saya tak didengar.

Saya memang kuat kerja. Sekalipun ia mengecewakan, bagi saya akhirnya ia tak apa-apa kerana ia hanyalah kerja. Lebih baik daripada dikecewakan manusia 😢.

Ibu abah pun tak tahu saya kerja macam mana. Makan ke tak, bahagia ke tak.. Sebab kalau diorang tahu, mungkin, saya tak akan dibenarkan kerja. Biar je nampak macam hidup ini enjoyyyy~

Kuatlah bekerja walaupun tak ada alasan!

Nota kaki: ejaan d.e.u.g.r.o memang huruf kecik sebab ia dalam bahasa Jerman yang nama panjangnya: deutsche grosstransporte gesselshaft. Camtulah.

Looking forward to something good with this company, at least expanding to 20 manpower and a great team development!

AADC

Aku, dari masa lalumu, berhasil menghancurkanmu.

Supaya kau berfikir bahawa kau tidak punya masa depan di syurga.

Duka selautan jiwa

Dimana kita letakkan kedukaan kita menggambarkan siapa sebenarnya kita.

Jika duka kita adalah kerana makan minum, cinta, keluarga,.. maka kita mungkin adalah golongan biasa-biasa saja. Normal. Lekeh benau, kata orang melake.

Tapi kalau kesedihan kita kerana lewat solat, buat dosa, sakitkan hati orang lain, itu bagus.. menggambarkan yang hati kita masih hidup, ada iman, dan masih perlu diperbaiki.

Lebih baik kalau kesedihan kita adalah kerana amal-amal yang kita lakukan tak berkualiti, sambil lewa, tak ada nilai. Rugi, rugi, rugi.

Letakkanlah kesedihanmu, Ashikin, pada tempat sebetulnya.

Andai hidup ini ada backwardnya, undo, atau deletion program....... kan bagos!

My Eating disorder

Since deugro moment, I have meal time irregularity.

When I was living with Kak Mai for working with MedicMesir, I always eat on time. Lunch, and dinners. Kak Mai & Kak Lia will cook for dinner and I was only take part in finishing the foods. For Lunch, we will leave office on time at 1pm. Even our boss treat us lunch lotss of time.

Life was a bliss.. hahahaha..

Starting in Kintetsu, I felt strange that salesperson did not befriend each other. They rarely gather for lunch together. They did not taking care of each other, their own team. But still, I managed to stuff myself on time in the afternoon.

When I move to deugro, almost nobody go out for lunch. My lunchmate buddy has resigned last month. My boss did not take lunch with me for having his own diet programs, My senior kak Lily is having knee pain restricting her to move a lot.

I never have eating disorder ever before until I was left heartbroken & wordless, since already a year.

I did not blame anyone for this sickness, it is just me that sometimes I feel its really hard for me to finish my food.

I really feels that I need heartily support. I felt silence depression that I happen to cry sometimes, unreasonably - cause I feel I cant take care of myself well.

Sincerely me, 16th May 2016

Choose your battle

Choose your battlefield, your enemy, your swords, for it defines who you are.

Fight your own battle, for nobody will fight for you

We will die in the chosen battle - Winning or Losing is not for us to determine. Its important for us to know whether we are fighting hard enough, for the correct battle?

Just another day

Happy birthday, a.muksmuks.

You may probably no longer read my blog. Or you never care.

I didnt really remember how was my first birthday present to you.
Back then I was really wanted 4th May to pass faster, every year
Because sometimes I spend the day crying for being unable to call you nor to convey my wishes.

Table May turns.

From now, I decided to made today is just another ordinary days that passes quickly.

Cant afford to lose no more

Today is Chan Kah Wai's last day in deugro.

He told me to spread wings and get to know alot more of poeple in my life.

And somehow take my boss joke seriously- the Chicken Logistics.

But, I tell you. Its not that I am being reserved or declined good offers, I quit Kintetsu because I just cant afford to lose so many people from my life.

I rather ignore and let people pass- because tbh, my precious person's departure was terribly painful to me. I prefer myself to leave, I myself saying goodbye is much better than letting anyone else say it first.

Thats how I decide how to feel about goodbyes.

Yoshinori sama

When I was in Kintetsu, I was hired&hand picked by a very kind boss named as per subject.

He is someone loyal & very lenient, listens to my suggestion & someone who deserve respect.

And he send me message, saying he is going back to Japan. So I invite him to lunch, as a farewell.

I felt appreciated that bosses from Kintetsu joined the lunch & introduce me to the new GM, reinviting me joining Kintetsu again.

I was asking to the boss, "why do you like me so much?"

The boss replied, "Your personality is good. You keep smiling & you are positive attitude" (his english is broken)

Every boss teach different lesson.
Sayonara, Yoshinori sama!

Cool down

The good thing about being Norashikin is: she is damn good about forgetting bad things.

After a while, things we are so mad about just doesnt matter anymore.

Please accept changes when it is, girl,
when people turn bad or good, just accept them duly as what they are now.

Even if, you once felt that your soul connected well, and suddenly that person disconnected & walk away from your life as how he likes it, just accept the fact.

Crying is only the reflects. When you feel like healing, then you heal simply the way you want, and, things that make you sad only keep you alive & know what matters.

Terribly mad!

I have learnt certain level of being angry when I am in deugro. And yes, those feelings changes me from just someone nice to someone who do not care anymore, at all!

I even curse, to my own surprised.

This stupid perempuan gemuk badak air once upon a time have a very nice Indian superior at ops dept and being jealous with her superior can go away managing things, and all benefits she got, she eliminated this woman & got her resigned. Badak air got promoted to supervisor, having junior coming to her dept. Now the junior gone because of her terrible attitude, she is now a supervisor and ops all alone.

Today boss wanted me to help this badak air with her work.

I DONT WANT and I DONT CARE!

Reasons are:
1. She is the person with worst attitude.
She complaint about everyone to bosses and get herself promoted.

2. Company did not investigate who to blame when the company's turnover is super high

3. I am BD not Ops in any manners. I will not take responsibility if I did wrong carrying my duty

4. Finance dept are not doing their billing job. All invoicing work have been thrown to ops. And finance/HR/office management dept eat 3 times a day during office hours.

5. I am paid to be support, not ops or any robots, stupid!

6. Sole reason is I just do not want to have any tie with this pih badak air

More reason to come, Just ranting my anger since nobody cares

Incredible pained

I didnt move on at all.

this is the most painful stage in my life- I cant forget and time did not heal at all.

what did i do to myself, why i have let myself wounded terribly?

Seriously, I have to get over this.

I did everything to make myself heal, maybe its not the correct way, i still need some time.

I learned my lesson. Horraayy!

Working in deugro teach me things in super multifast tasking. And i need to really be learning my lesson to carefully costing and generate revenuesss to this rice bowl.

and in deugro I have my team to fight for me and feels like a team.

this is more than enough already.

Attitude

Tinggal di rumah makcik dan membantu apa yang mampu, adalah satu ketuahan —membantu dengan rasa besar hati.

Saya diminta mengambil adik sepupu pulang dari sekolah setiap hari, Isnin-Jumaat. Budak ini saya rasakan kurang beradab, dia tidak pernah mengucapkan terima kasih setiap kali saya menghantarnya pulang dengan selamat. Malah kalau saya terlewat mengambilnya, muncung mulutnya bahkan panjang, malah mukanya masam sekali. Ada hari, dia menghempas pintu kereta dengan begitu kuat, membuatkan saya rasa ingin menyumpahnya (atau mungkin telahpun menyumpah anak ini).

Geram. Saya refleks.

Mahalnya adab dia ini, mungkin kerana ibu bapanya berbicara dengan kasar, menyindir anak, tidak pernah bercakap dengan tenang, sentiasa menyebut kos belanja saban hari.

Atau, saya orang yang tidak ikhlas melakukan kerja sukarelawan ini. Penat, memang ya. Kadang seharian saya memerah otak bekerja, kemudian menghadapi ujian akhlak remaja seperti ini. Mungkin kerana ini saya belum berkahwin lagi- sebab lelaki selamanya anak kepada seorang perempuan- tidak mampu menghadap perangai hormon tak stabil.

Dia membuatkan saya berasa seperti pemandu peribadinya. Ada hari, tiba2 je menyuruh saya mengambilnya di stesen LRT. Hari ini dia dengan ayat arahan memberitahu dia xperlu diambil tanpa memberitahu sebab.

Tidak tahu cara terbaik menghadapi situasi ini, saya hanya berkata 'terima kasih' setiap kali dia turun dari kereta.

A taste of your heart

one by one.

After all, the taste of heart is bitter - because it swallow all the pains and keep loving, no matter what happen.

Can I have a sip of your heart, young man?

If you are still here

My mission of the year is not to buy any books.

So I read online books or e-books.

You often asked what I am reading now and I will never mind sharing my reading materials. Thats how we interconnected with each other a lot, we shared our mind.

So this year I downloaded and finished reading few books, even re-read tremendous time the Love Rosie.

If you are still here I will share that e-book via google Play Books. I wish for your happiness & have a great life!

One down

My motivation to work has drained, as my good friend & teammate Chan is going to flew away- resigned- next week.

I was asking him to behold, early of this year, telling him that I wont change my job for a year, but he cant wait.

Man. He made me really sick that man nowadays cant stand the pain of working, being responsible and going through tough times. Chan, my elder brother, my best friend, yadayadayada.

I dont like the feelings of lack-of-teammates, but at the same time I wish, really wish that he will be happy on the path he chose. Work is work, and, he has feelings no more.

Since nobody cares to listen to what I feel,  now, I will walk my path alone and again, do things my way. and will be successful.

Oh so lonely.

Photograph II

Remember when I told u that I missed my little giggles all the time?

I did, yesterday. for absailing training.
And take pictures out of it.
I realized that I'm only happy being around prcious sahibah. They made me happy and warm. Their feelings are so true.

It get hard sometimes but it keep me feel alive.

"We keep this love in a photograph
We made these memories for ourselves
Where our eyes are never closing
Hearts are never broken
Times forever frozen still"

Angel cums Devil

My father once asked..

"why Nora, we human are much better than angels and much evil than devil?"

I replied,

"because we human have been awarded with brain to think, heart to choose and nafs to balance. Choosing to be bad causes us to be even worst than shaytaan, choosing goodness causes us to be better than angels.

As angels are made to obey and Iblis are made to be deviant,turned&treason as their fitrah, but we are made to choose."

keep learning, Nora.

Photograph

My working days now are not so bad, alhamdulillah.

I got to have an interesting experience of going to wharf, see project cargo and the management of it, the shipment in the bare eyes, the vessels, the person in charge..

My nights filled with classes and my reading session because i have my own targets. And feel a little suffocated sometimes, because I still cry in my leisure time.

I still being harrased by my stupid colleague at work who hate me for no reason. She complaints all day about me just because she hate me, doesn't like me for being so happy around. And I play along making her feels more irritated by doing my job well.

All thats meant to me from deugro is just because I believe Allah has planned goodness for me, my istikharah feels like working out really well. I did have good omen stepping to deugro over KWE, even though my early days feel like..hell..

When I focus on the good thing, push myself, and comes the boss guiding me all the way, and senior at work who help me through stupidity.

I am glad and happy, that I take bad things in positive way, even I can't help feeling irritated.

"Love can hurt sometimes,
but its the only thing i know
it is something that makes us feel alive"

I wanted to share my boss message to me & keep my spirit up:

Take Care

Half of my life have been influenced by someone I loved so much and leave me now.

That is not the case, I am not blaming anyone for my life risks.

I feel like I am being attacked from every aspects of my life. I felt fragile, really. People I know are dragging me into their business, and profits. I did not say this is totally a bad thing but every steps I am taking now is sole important to me. I need to take care of myself.

Just be guided and be strong and take care, Ashikin. Its this hilarious life!

Valkyrie Plot for Najib

Harini saya menonton cerita Valkyrie, Kisah plot pemberontakan menjatuhkan Hitler dengan menggunakan command yang dicipta pemerintah sekiranya Hitler mati.

Basically Valkyrie bermaksud "chooser of the slain", yang memilih siapa patut hidup dan mayi dalam pertempuran. tapi Valkyrie Operation bermaksud 'pelan operasi kerajaan pada masa darurat yang dikeluarkan oleh kerajaan Jerman ketika Perang Dunia Ke II, arahan yang dikeluarkan kepada Tentera Simpanan Daerah untuk dilaksanakan sekiranya berlaku gangguan dalam turutan umum kerajaan'.

Dalam cerita ni, protagonis berusaha mengumpulkan orang kepercayaan, ada beberapa cubaan membunuh Hitler, kemudian menggunakan peluang yang ada untuk menyebarkan false alarm dan menggunakan prinsip kerajaan yang ada untuk berpaling tadah, cuba melepaskan kawasan jajahan dari diktator, ingin membebaskan kampung halaman sendiri dan ingin berkuasa.

Saya ingin menyarankan kita semua menggunakan strategi ini kepada pemerintah sekarang nan diktator dan menyakitkan hati rakyat.

Vacuum Untuk Abah

Abah has never asked for much, so do ibu. They have ever only asked for foods, which I dont mind buying.

One fine Sunday, Abah called, asking if I could buy him vacuum from Go-Shop, current trend of homeshopping. So you know I never believe in any of online shopping, so do tv-shopping. I promised to buy him one, but not from Go Shop.

Yesterday I have rehlah in the morning. And I suddenly got temperal fever & dizzy.. I have some rest before moving my ass to Tesco & Giant to buy a vacuum for abah - he wanted the one which can work with wet surface. It is mere expensive but I really want to grant abah this wish so i buy.

Nothing too expensive for parents. Even if I go really broke today. =D

The changes

Somehow I feels like I am completely different person from the pasts.

I didnt greet people so much anymore.
I complaints at the grocery store for counter prices are different than shown.
I skip kenduri and programs and promises whenever I feel like it.

I feel I am a little less patient now.

I am not ready for this, man, what happen to me??

:(

Lust and Love

Growing up and old, meeting people and develops feelings, sometimes could make us confuse in deciding whats best for us. We sometimes even distracted with what we dont have while we could be happy with what we already have.

Things could be mixing so sometimes we cant determine what is actually is. We even confused lust with love where it is interrelated. But both are different entity.

Loving, means, knowing all the do's and dont's, having to know every single details of the beloved. While lust, is nowhere. No.where and now.here. It doesnt have any deep meaning.

My root name, in arabic, is Ishq. It could be lust, it could be love. Depends, on what you want me to be, in your life. I could be lovely and choose to be it~

Meeting with Ling

I happen to meet and having dinner with Ling, my ex classmate back in UUM today.

He noticed me through my LinkedIn profile, knowing my company is deugro Projects.

He is and was my good classmate & a thoughtful person, someone I cherish in our class. We both are stars of the class~

I was stunned at first when he notified me because I personally did not remember this fellas at all. He said he remembers me because of my character.

My character is kinda somethingg.. I met few people who remembers me because of my character - but mostly people remember me because of my face; cute & warmth!

haha entri bongkak.

Yesterday our boss came back from his long vacay, and first thing he did in the morning was....defending me from being accused of rudeness!

Thank you, boss. I felt apprreciated~~

Have you ever loved, all your life?

I am currently reading "Reflections of a Man" written by Amari Soul.

Stated in this book.. that.. a man will truly pours his money for what he loves. If he were to find out cheating, his woman would found out from his expenses.

My mum is considered lucky that my father is a stingy & not-so-financial-wealth person. He has never even spent pennies on expensive foods-even allergies on chickens so our family have very less consumption on expensive food.

we cant order pitza home, nor KFC, either.
so I believe my mum never been cheated at her back because my father doesnt have extra money to spend on woman other than me, my sisters and my mum.

I have been having loved all my life, so, why worry?

Lowest Point

Saya adalah manusia yang kalah.

Pada akhirnya, kekalahan saya bermakna saya tidak pernah mengerahkan kudrat dan jiwa ini untuk apa yang sepatutnya saya buat.

Jika pada masa belajar saya suka berkejar-kejar dengan kuliah dan program, kenapa tidak sekarang??
Kenapa saya mudah tewas?

Kenapaaaapapapapaaa

Sekarang saya mudah marah, kecil hati, mengamuk, merajuk, menyendiri...... Mempertikaikan apa yang berlaku pada manusia di sekeliling saya. Menyalahkan orang lain atas situasi yang saya tak suka. Merasa tak suka pada orang yang mengorbankan kehidupannya untuk saya. Segala hal ini, adalah benda-benda yang saya tak pernah buat dulu.

Adakah saya mula berubah menjadi manusia jahat?

Entah.

Kadang-kadang rasa lost, makin kehilangan diri.

Allah, jagakanlah jiwa ini.

Doraemon - Stand By Me

Long CNY for a single like me seems like forever, so I watched Doraemon-stand by me.

Growing up, we siblings love reading Doraemon, Conan, Shin Chan, & funny creative arts.

Stand By Me is about how Doraemon have come into Nobita's life, make friends with him, color the life, put up with all the put downs, be with Nobita on every thick and thin, and made him feels better. And when the time comes, Doraemon leave & never came back.

So its a wrap. A good bye.
Nobita misses Doraemon so much, feeling thankful for its existence, and hope that Doraemon will never come back again.

Thanks, Doraemon. You colored my childhood, too!

Someone from the past

In my favourite, most treasured reading materials, Rosie said that..

she dont want Alex just happened to be "someone I used to know, that we dont talk to each other anymore".

Theres some people in life I know and I dont wanna lose them, either, Rosie.. I somehow understands what Rosie feels. I am having good times with people around me, people I grown up with. People that taught me things - but seems like they preserve friendship in their own way: they like me to be just someone they know.

((be it sahibah who only contact me when they have programs, not to hangout or visits or spend leisure time or play games together. They only finds me for programs and usrah, not to fill our leisure time together so i feel bounded that we only friends for names, like how we did to our past/ex-classmates,ex-coursemates and so I should call them co-jaymates??))

So when you see my names on newspaper or mags in the future, or we happen to meet on the streets with our babies, bump into each other at malls, you can tell your other half that this is Norashikin you used to hangout together in past good old days, your ex of whatever  but we dont talk anymore.

I am sure that I'm not happy to be "Just someone you used to know" but I'm happy that at least i have touch a dimension of your life as a sign of my coexistence.

Ukhwah and friendships isn't Touch N Go and I dont want to be just anyone you met in the past.

Crazy little things called love

Dah lama saya tak buat review cerita yang saya suka.

"A Little Things Called Love" adalah sebuah filem Thailand tentang Nam, budak perempuan Tingkatan 1 yang menyukai seniornya, Shone. Merasakan yang Shone terlalu hensem, sporty, friendly dan baik, Nam berusaha meningkatkan kelebihan diri, menjadi cantik, pandai, dan outspoken. Dia dan kawan-kawannya menggunakan buku panduan 9 recipes of Love untuk memenangi hati Shone.

Turns out that... Shone dah lama sukakan Nam walaupun masatu Nam masih budak hingusan. Even, Shone tahu yang Nam guna buku panduan bongok tu tapi still berpura-pura macam tak tahu apa-apa.

Kesemua 9 tips dalam buku panduan tu tak berguna, jadi kawan Nam menambah 1 tips ke 10: real confession. Tapi, Shone telahpun mempunyai orang lain..

Macam Where Rainbows End.

Well cerita ni comel sebab budak perempuan tu clumsy, baik hati, dan sopan, dan berubah dari perempuan biasa kepada seorang yang matang. Dan perkembangan cerita ni sangat baik, dari sekolah sampailah diorang besar.

Pengajaran cerita? hampir takde kecuali kalau dah suka tu cakap je la takyah nak simpan lama2.

dan.. Mungkin, cinta dalam hati, admiration, mengubah manusia menjadi lebih baik sebab ada excitement dan rahsia.

Cinta ni, cukuplah aku tahu dan kau tahu~

Recommended baq hangg

By myself

Each and everyday I have to take care of myself.

Life is not about being happy, its about dealing with all the ups and downs, good and bad times.

Today I went sightseeing at Paradigm (again!) after dinner with my officemates for so called gathering. Since this is end of month I am being broke so sightseeing is more than enough.

What I am trying to narrates here is; being by yourself you have lots of options to jump and tossed around, gotta choose everything by yourself. When we were little kids, we dont have to care about everything- we used to be fed and clothed by our parents. We didnt chose expensive attire, classy bags, and yet we were so happy. Its enough that we had enough.

But today I felt a little of deep feelings of sadness- that,.. urm.. Im afford to buy things I like but its not enough of happiness. I have to cloth and feed myself, and I'm not so happy about this.

Yet again, life is not all about happiness, its about dealing with this loneliness, that I have to be reminded that life doesnt evolve around me and me only.

When I start enjoying craziness

Despite of all the hard times at work, theres good times.

Good times when I started to at least happily work and get to know my colleague from all around the globes. My weakness, and my strength too, is that I get indulged to places I set my feet on and people started feeling comfortable to my existence.

Being smart and pure is my strength, I believe that. Even sometimes I am dumb and morons too- but I strive hard to learn and adapt.

I started feeling comfortable at work when I start making profits for shipment I quoted, and challenge myself to quote for oversized which is actually Very Easy.

I am happy that despite all the nasty words thrown at me by OPS, even by big boss, at least my team support me saying that its okay, and I keep going. My boss even fake his nagging to me today, which makes me laugh instead of feeling stupid.

I start gaining strength, and being more firm of a person that those stupid morons around are unable to have me weaken of their action. Sadly, they even pissed off when I laugh or hums, I am not allowed to show my happiness and leisure at work.

They complaints over nuts, thats super pitiful soul.

And I, promise myself that I will stay the whole year unless my boss leave the company or I'm being fired.

Dealing with present tense.

Read: Tekanan Zaman Sekarang.
Hehe.

Saya adalah orang yang membesar dengan hampir sendirian, tanpa ibu abah selalu menemani, dengan kawan yang datang dan pergi. Saya tidak pernah tinggal di suatu tempat dengan begitu lama, kecuali semasa belajar di universiti. Pengembara tegar.

Melalui semua itu, saya lali mengenal orang baru setiap kali, setiap hari, selalu. Menghadapi segala mehnah dan belajar darinya. Dealing with all the crazy people and still standing. Ayah saya atau abang saya tidak pernah mempertahankan saya kerana saya dibuli atau dimarah cikgu.

Jadi, proses ini telah menghasilkan saya yang sekarang, imperfect me.

Saya menuliskan ini kerana zaman FB ini telah menjadikan ibubapa, masyarakat terlalu critisizing, suka berceloteh tapi hasilnya tak ada. Ia juga telah membentuk fenomena dan ketakutan melampau masyarakat kepada sesuatu yg tak sepatutnya, i.e penculikan dan jenayah rambang.

Zaman anak kita zaman yang amat mencabar. Inilah juga apa yang dikatakan bapa bapa kita semasa kita masih anak-anak. Biarkanlah mereka melalui zamannya dengan tekun dan sabar, Jangan terlalu dimanjakan. Kenalkanlah anak2 dengan Allah, dan bertawakkal kepadaNya.

Doa. Yakinlah yang doa bunda itu adalah yang termakbul dan powerful.

Semoga, semasa saya ada anak nanti, Allah jaga dia, kenalkan dia denganNya.

amin.

Distraction

Today I got to attend Konvensyen Halaqah Keluarga, in Masjid Putra, Putrajaya.

I got distracted for 2 things,
1. Little kids, (I cant ignore babies, omo)
2. Another speaker behind me. Its like watching movies and having narrators around. Made me sick!

Kbai

Regret

Perasaan yang paling kuat selepas cinta, adalah kekecewaan.

kalau orang poyo cakap, deep.

Maksud saya, ia adalah perasaan yang mengubah manusia.

While love could be shown, regretness cant. They are meant to be unseen, transparent, ignored, transparent.

Sepertimana cinta mampu hilang, kekecewaan juga begitu. Ia memudar, dan terubati dengan banyak lagi perkara yang didatangkan dalam hidup kita. Kebahagiaan, kesibukan, kasih sayang, cinta.

Kalau nak diceritakan berapa banyak regretness yang saya ada, dah banyak buku yang saya boleh tulis.

Well harini saya kecewa lagi, tapi kalini saya sedia dan lebih matang sikit :p

How I Met Your Mother

Tiba-tiba je rasa nak kahwin dengan orang yang mak dia solehah.

Obviously saya jatuh hati dengan orang yang perwatakan dia macam Ummi Norsiah, cinta hati saya yang tertinggal di UUM. Yang menerima saya seadanya, suka membaca, suka masak, perwatakan keibuan, kata2 menusuk lembut bak air..

Saya nak sangat pergi program sama2 dengan mertua. Usrah dengan dia. Masak sama-sama. Jaga anak dia. Hormatkannya..

Menyantuni saya sebagai menantu sewajarnya seorang ibu.

Eh bestnyaa dapat mertua cool cenggitu!
tak babes berangan. kawennye tak jugak. feh.