Friday, March 25, 2016

Attitude

di tulis oleh norashikin rahmat pada Friday, March 25, 2016 0 komen best

Tinggal di rumah makcik dan membantu apa yang mampu, adalah satu ketuahan —membantu dengan rasa besar hati.

Saya diminta mengambil adik sepupu pulang dari sekolah setiap hari, Isnin-Jumaat. Budak ini saya rasakan kurang beradab, dia tidak pernah mengucapkan terima kasih setiap kali saya menghantarnya pulang dengan selamat. Malah kalau saya terlewat mengambilnya, muncung mulutnya bahkan panjang, malah mukanya masam sekali. Ada hari, dia menghempas pintu kereta dengan begitu kuat, membuatkan saya rasa ingin menyumpahnya (atau mungkin telahpun menyumpah anak ini).

Geram. Saya refleks.

Mahalnya adab dia ini, mungkin kerana ibu bapanya berbicara dengan kasar, menyindir anak, tidak pernah bercakap dengan tenang, sentiasa menyebut kos belanja saban hari.

Atau, saya orang yang tidak ikhlas melakukan kerja sukarelawan ini. Penat, memang ya. Kadang seharian saya memerah otak bekerja, kemudian menghadapi ujian akhlak remaja seperti ini. Mungkin kerana ini saya belum berkahwin lagi- sebab lelaki selamanya anak kepada seorang perempuan- tidak mampu menghadap perangai hormon tak stabil.

Dia membuatkan saya berasa seperti pemandu peribadinya. Ada hari, tiba2 je menyuruh saya mengambilnya di stesen LRT. Hari ini dia dengan ayat arahan memberitahu dia xperlu diambil tanpa memberitahu sebab.

Tidak tahu cara terbaik menghadapi situasi ini, saya hanya berkata 'terima kasih' setiap kali dia turun dari kereta.

Thursday, March 17, 2016

A taste of your heart

di tulis oleh norashikin rahmat pada Thursday, March 17, 2016 0 komen best

one by one.

After all, the taste of heart is bitter - because it swallow all the pains and keep loving, no matter what happen.

Can I have a sip of your heart, young man?

Sunday, March 13, 2016

If you are still here

di tulis oleh norashikin rahmat pada Sunday, March 13, 2016 0 komen best

My mission of the year is not to buy any books.

So I read online books or e-books.

You often asked what I am reading now and I will never mind sharing my reading materials. Thats how we interconnected with each other a lot, we shared our mind.

So this year I downloaded and finished reading few books, even re-read tremendous time the Love Rosie.

If you are still here I will share that e-book via google Play Books. I wish for your happiness & have a great life!

One down

di tulis oleh norashikin rahmat pada Sunday, March 13, 2016 0 komen best

My motivation to work has drained, as my good friend & teammate Chan is going to flew away- resigned- next week.

I was asking him to behold, early of this year, telling him that I wont change my job for a year, but he cant wait.

Man. He made me really sick that man nowadays cant stand the pain of working, being responsible and going through tough times. Chan, my elder brother, my best friend, yadayadayada.

I dont like the feelings of lack-of-teammates, but at the same time I wish, really wish that he will be happy on the path he chose. Work is work, and, he has feelings no more.

Since nobody cares to listen to what I feel,  now, I will walk my path alone and again, do things my way. and will be successful.

Oh so lonely.

Monday, March 07, 2016

Photograph II

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Remember when I told u that I missed my little giggles all the time?

I did, yesterday. for absailing training.
And take pictures out of it.
I realized that I'm only happy being around prcious sahibah. They made me happy and warm. Their feelings are so true.

It get hard sometimes but it keep me feel alive.

"We keep this love in a photograph
We made these memories for ourselves
Where our eyes are never closing
Hearts are never broken
Times forever frozen still"

Saturday, March 05, 2016

Angel cums Devil

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My father once asked..

"why Nora, we human are much better than angels and much evil than devil?"

I replied,

"because we human have been awarded with brain to think, heart to choose and nafs to balance. Choosing to be bad causes us to be even worst than shaytaan, choosing goodness causes us to be better than angels.

As angels are made to obey and Iblis are made to be deviant,turned&treason as their fitrah, but we are made to choose."

keep learning, Nora.

Thursday, March 03, 2016

Photograph

di tulis oleh norashikin rahmat pada Thursday, March 03, 2016 0 komen best

My working days now are not so bad, alhamdulillah.

I got to have an interesting experience of going to wharf, see project cargo and the management of it, the shipment in the bare eyes, the vessels, the person in charge..

My nights filled with classes and my reading session because i have my own targets. And feel a little suffocated sometimes, because I still cry in my leisure time.

I still being harrased by my stupid colleague at work who hate me for no reason. She complaints all day about me just because she hate me, doesn't like me for being so happy around. And I play along making her feels more irritated by doing my job well.

All thats meant to me from deugro is just because I believe Allah has planned goodness for me, my istikharah feels like working out really well. I did have good omen stepping to deugro over KWE, even though my early days feel like..hell..

When I focus on the good thing, push myself, and comes the boss guiding me all the way, and senior at work who help me through stupidity.

I am glad and happy, that I take bad things in positive way, even I can't help feeling irritated.

"Love can hurt sometimes,
but its the only thing i know
it is something that makes us feel alive"

I wanted to share my boss message to me & keep my spirit up:

 

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