Furious at how messy the current company flow now

 When we were a really small setup, small company, 

It was fine to do all the admin works and real work altogether.

and now, with the overflowing ready-current works,

and everyone is éxcited' to show off their teeth,

i feel furious.. where all the burdens just throw off at us without trying to lift it off.

And when we made small mistakes, boom,.. destroys our good years of track records.

5 years we were happy together, and 1 year created unhealthy work environment.

We are scared to make any decision compared to years of wisdoms and freedom to be creative at work.

Good colleagues are hard to find, cherish them!

Alhamdulillah, I won a contract! I dont know for how many time already but this feels like a first time because this is purely involved my major involvement, where we started quoting from a scratch, and Godfred babysit me during the whole process.

Previously I was really guided (all the time) by our good boss, Maxime. Mostly for SBM shipments, and other local clients that cracked my head. 

Maybe because I was hugely dependent on his ability, I did not learned well on the arbitrary, terms & conditions.

This time since we did not report directly to Maxime, and he is currently overseas, my team have helped me through this difficult time. Eugene, Godfred, Nicolas.

Though some (only one) of them are difficult people, they are, indeed, want us to learn to stand on our own feet and be a good teammate.

Through this, I learned that people lead differently. 

They are not the same person as our good leader Maxime, they are leader in the making, and I want to believe that.