Take Care

Half of my life have been influenced by someone I loved so much and leave me now.

That is not the case, I am not blaming anyone for my life risks.

I feel like I am being attacked from every aspects of my life. I felt fragile, really. People I know are dragging me into their business, and profits. I did not say this is totally a bad thing but every steps I am taking now is sole important to me. I need to take care of myself.

Just be guided and be strong and take care, Ashikin. Its this hilarious life!

Valkyrie Plot for Najib

Harini saya menonton cerita Valkyrie, Kisah plot pemberontakan menjatuhkan Hitler dengan menggunakan command yang dicipta pemerintah sekiranya Hitler mati.

Basically Valkyrie bermaksud "chooser of the slain", yang memilih siapa patut hidup dan mayi dalam pertempuran. tapi Valkyrie Operation bermaksud 'pelan operasi kerajaan pada masa darurat yang dikeluarkan oleh kerajaan Jerman ketika Perang Dunia Ke II, arahan yang dikeluarkan kepada Tentera Simpanan Daerah untuk dilaksanakan sekiranya berlaku gangguan dalam turutan umum kerajaan'.

Dalam cerita ni, protagonis berusaha mengumpulkan orang kepercayaan, ada beberapa cubaan membunuh Hitler, kemudian menggunakan peluang yang ada untuk menyebarkan false alarm dan menggunakan prinsip kerajaan yang ada untuk berpaling tadah, cuba melepaskan kawasan jajahan dari diktator, ingin membebaskan kampung halaman sendiri dan ingin berkuasa.

Saya ingin menyarankan kita semua menggunakan strategi ini kepada pemerintah sekarang nan diktator dan menyakitkan hati rakyat.

Vacuum Untuk Abah

Abah has never asked for much, so do ibu. They have ever only asked for foods, which I dont mind buying.

One fine Sunday, Abah called, asking if I could buy him vacuum from Go-Shop, current trend of homeshopping. So you know I never believe in any of online shopping, so do tv-shopping. I promised to buy him one, but not from Go Shop.

Yesterday I have rehlah in the morning. And I suddenly got temperal fever & dizzy.. I have some rest before moving my ass to Tesco & Giant to buy a vacuum for abah - he wanted the one which can work with wet surface. It is mere expensive but I really want to grant abah this wish so i buy.

Nothing too expensive for parents. Even if I go really broke today. =D

The changes

Somehow I feels like I am completely different person from the pasts.

I didnt greet people so much anymore.
I complaints at the grocery store for counter prices are different than shown.
I skip kenduri and programs and promises whenever I feel like it.

I feel I am a little less patient now.

I am not ready for this, man, what happen to me??

:(

Lust and Love

Growing up and old, meeting people and develops feelings, sometimes could make us confuse in deciding whats best for us. We sometimes even distracted with what we dont have while we could be happy with what we already have.

Things could be mixing so sometimes we cant determine what is actually is. We even confused lust with love where it is interrelated. But both are different entity.

Loving, means, knowing all the do's and dont's, having to know every single details of the beloved. While lust, is nowhere. No.where and now.here. It doesnt have any deep meaning.

My root name, in arabic, is Ishq. It could be lust, it could be love. Depends, on what you want me to be, in your life. I could be lovely and choose to be it~

Meeting with Ling

I happen to meet and having dinner with Ling, my ex classmate back in UUM today.

He noticed me through my LinkedIn profile, knowing my company is deugro Projects.

He is and was my good classmate & a thoughtful person, someone I cherish in our class. We both are stars of the class~

I was stunned at first when he notified me because I personally did not remember this fellas at all. He said he remembers me because of my character.

My character is kinda somethingg.. I met few people who remembers me because of my character - but mostly people remember me because of my face; cute & warmth!

haha entri bongkak.

Yesterday our boss came back from his long vacay, and first thing he did in the morning was....defending me from being accused of rudeness!

Thank you, boss. I felt apprreciated~~

Have you ever loved, all your life?

I am currently reading "Reflections of a Man" written by Amari Soul.

Stated in this book.. that.. a man will truly pours his money for what he loves. If he were to find out cheating, his woman would found out from his expenses.

My mum is considered lucky that my father is a stingy & not-so-financial-wealth person. He has never even spent pennies on expensive foods-even allergies on chickens so our family have very less consumption on expensive food.

we cant order pitza home, nor KFC, either.
so I believe my mum never been cheated at her back because my father doesnt have extra money to spend on woman other than me, my sisters and my mum.

I have been having loved all my life, so, why worry?

Lowest Point

Saya adalah manusia yang kalah.

Pada akhirnya, kekalahan saya bermakna saya tidak pernah mengerahkan kudrat dan jiwa ini untuk apa yang sepatutnya saya buat.

Jika pada masa belajar saya suka berkejar-kejar dengan kuliah dan program, kenapa tidak sekarang??
Kenapa saya mudah tewas?

Kenapaaaapapapapaaa

Sekarang saya mudah marah, kecil hati, mengamuk, merajuk, menyendiri...... Mempertikaikan apa yang berlaku pada manusia di sekeliling saya. Menyalahkan orang lain atas situasi yang saya tak suka. Merasa tak suka pada orang yang mengorbankan kehidupannya untuk saya. Segala hal ini, adalah benda-benda yang saya tak pernah buat dulu.

Adakah saya mula berubah menjadi manusia jahat?

Entah.

Kadang-kadang rasa lost, makin kehilangan diri.

Allah, jagakanlah jiwa ini.

Doraemon - Stand By Me

Long CNY for a single like me seems like forever, so I watched Doraemon-stand by me.

Growing up, we siblings love reading Doraemon, Conan, Shin Chan, & funny creative arts.

Stand By Me is about how Doraemon have come into Nobita's life, make friends with him, color the life, put up with all the put downs, be with Nobita on every thick and thin, and made him feels better. And when the time comes, Doraemon leave & never came back.

So its a wrap. A good bye.
Nobita misses Doraemon so much, feeling thankful for its existence, and hope that Doraemon will never come back again.

Thanks, Doraemon. You colored my childhood, too!

Someone from the past

In my favourite, most treasured reading materials, Rosie said that..

she dont want Alex just happened to be "someone I used to know, that we dont talk to each other anymore".

Theres some people in life I know and I dont wanna lose them, either, Rosie.. I somehow understands what Rosie feels. I am having good times with people around me, people I grown up with. People that taught me things - but seems like they preserve friendship in their own way: they like me to be just someone they know.

((be it sahibah who only contact me when they have programs, not to hangout or visits or spend leisure time or play games together. They only finds me for programs and usrah, not to fill our leisure time together so i feel bounded that we only friends for names, like how we did to our past/ex-classmates,ex-coursemates and so I should call them co-jaymates??))

So when you see my names on newspaper or mags in the future, or we happen to meet on the streets with our babies, bump into each other at malls, you can tell your other half that this is Norashikin you used to hangout together in past good old days, your ex of whatever  but we dont talk anymore.

I am sure that I'm not happy to be "Just someone you used to know" but I'm happy that at least i have touch a dimension of your life as a sign of my coexistence.

Ukhwah and friendships isn't Touch N Go and I dont want to be just anyone you met in the past.

Crazy little things called love

Dah lama saya tak buat review cerita yang saya suka.

"A Little Things Called Love" adalah sebuah filem Thailand tentang Nam, budak perempuan Tingkatan 1 yang menyukai seniornya, Shone. Merasakan yang Shone terlalu hensem, sporty, friendly dan baik, Nam berusaha meningkatkan kelebihan diri, menjadi cantik, pandai, dan outspoken. Dia dan kawan-kawannya menggunakan buku panduan 9 recipes of Love untuk memenangi hati Shone.

Turns out that... Shone dah lama sukakan Nam walaupun masatu Nam masih budak hingusan. Even, Shone tahu yang Nam guna buku panduan bongok tu tapi still berpura-pura macam tak tahu apa-apa.

Kesemua 9 tips dalam buku panduan tu tak berguna, jadi kawan Nam menambah 1 tips ke 10: real confession. Tapi, Shone telahpun mempunyai orang lain..

Macam Where Rainbows End.

Well cerita ni comel sebab budak perempuan tu clumsy, baik hati, dan sopan, dan berubah dari perempuan biasa kepada seorang yang matang. Dan perkembangan cerita ni sangat baik, dari sekolah sampailah diorang besar.

Pengajaran cerita? hampir takde kecuali kalau dah suka tu cakap je la takyah nak simpan lama2.

dan.. Mungkin, cinta dalam hati, admiration, mengubah manusia menjadi lebih baik sebab ada excitement dan rahsia.

Cinta ni, cukuplah aku tahu dan kau tahu~

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