sadness

Our heart always filled with sadness, until we know who we really are.

To know that we are slaves is gratefulness.. tak semua orang tahu bahawa dia hamba kepada satu Tuhan. the one and only, Allah.

Actually what made me really sad today is the feelings of not chosen by Him.. just imagine theres a mawlid program in MASDAR today, and i already arrive at MASDAR on time, you see.. even earlier than the speaker.. The best thing to go to programs is the bi'ah solehah i can't find it anywhere else especially in UUM.. And what happen just before the talk start is that i have to go back to UUM on the dot for some critical reason.

So what i did today was presenting... doing the presentation as the representative of the club, with this painful heart.. the feelings of unselected.

I can't blame anyone else but myself. 

If you have time to be kind, please do so.. Sebabnya, bila kita berada dalam keadaan baik dan kebaikan pun merupakan satu rahmat Allah, apabila Allah memilih kita untuk berada dalam keadaan itu.

At this time, i realized, the word 'sadness' itself is sad.

"kesedihan yang datang, tak akan selamanya
begitulah selepas susah ada kesenangan..
jangan difikir derita akan berpanjangan
kelak akan membawa putus asa pada tuhan 
ingatlah biasanya kabus tak berpanjangan 
setelah kabus berlalu..pasti cerah kembali.."

so the key to this sadness is PATIENT. And think about how close we are to the end.