Conversation about marriage and parenting with Eddie

So being singles and pretty, of course people will ask me why.

Why am I still single.

To me, it is okay to get married at what you call "late". We are more stable in term of financial and emotional.

I was so busy preparing myself, because at some point when time is come, I am at my 'utmost prepared' stage :D

Today I had lunch with my friend in industry called Eddie. He told me that he get married at 31 y.o.
Getting married at adult age makes us more responsible, we agreed that matured couple does not quarrel a lot. Dating at this age means we does not wait for so long before asking the big question: getting into marriage.

Now he have a couple of kids, with eldest is boy at age 8 y.o. and little girl is 4 y.o.
At this age, the eldest keep telling the parent that he doesnt feel loved

Conversation with this guy makes me realized few things;
1. My parent did a good job raising me. I never felt that they are imbalanced.. My parent (especially my dad) unconciously tell me how to love my siblings

2.  That we need to teach our kids about faith. At some point in life, our kid need God to trust their life with, where parent is no longer an important figure in their life, or parent is no longer there with us.

3. Being single for up until now give me lots of chances to learn about parenting....while everyone around me getting married, having kids, bear child etc etc

4. Its okay getting married at later age. We have enough time to be pretty and beautiful the way we want, strengthen our connection, grow our knowledge, meet lots of people & mix around with others with multiple background and origins

5. I told him to give attention to eldest boy.. giving attention to the eldest means taking care of his emotional. And this will teach him to give good example to the younger, and he will love the younger sister if you give attention to him.

6. Father plays huge, important roles in a kid's life. Father that plays a lot with son will grow a son that have lots of self confidence in himself. Theres no perfect parenting, but everyone is trying their best.

7. My dad still calls me from time to time basis to ask me about how do I do with my life, and whether I talk to my siblings about their problem. My father teach me that: "in later life, your younger siblings will feel strongly attached to you"

I will write more about my dad on his birthday next week.. stay tuned!

Falling in lots of love today!

Today marked few things, and i felt lots of blessings today!

1. My uum junior KN who'd been asking me to help him job-hunting been called for interview with Zalora & Sapura. I am so happy, that Allah keep surprising us with his best arrangement. Terharu, sayu semua ada.

2. My lil bro Awang, is asking me to date on Saturday to movies! How wonderful is that? This is our very first time (before we did, a few time makan together) movies together! I am super excited, my lil bro is growing up! I know abah always says that adik kita akan ingat kat kita waktu dia senang kalau kita selalu hulur waktu dia susah.

I knew it abah❤

3. Maybe its midnight and i am just crazy because of the coffee today.

I have neck pain today but feels like not at pain at all because i am so much in adrenalin rush🙈

Syukur, ya Allah, Engkaulah Pemilik segala hati, segala cinta.

Happy boss day!

i missed my old bosses, and i appreciate my now- boss!

Lack of reason

While others are destined to met their first half earlier than me, i didnt.

It doesnt make me feel less, but not any better. My condition worsened, however, with my family. It does scared me, even though i keep telling myself not to blame them for what i felt, to be strong, and that their personal affairs does not belongs to me.

From now, if someone ask me why i'm not yet married, my response should be; "lack of reason to love for a long time".