Good colleagues are hard to find, cherish them!

Alhamdulillah, I won a contract! I dont know for how many time already but this feels like a first time because this is purely involved my major involvement, where we started quoting from a scratch, and Godfred babysit me during the whole process.

Previously I was really guided (all the time) by our good boss, Maxime. Mostly for SBM shipments, and other local clients that cracked my head. 

Maybe because I was hugely dependent on his ability, I did not learned well on the arbitrary, terms & conditions.

This time since we did not report directly to Maxime, and he is currently overseas, my team have helped me through this difficult time. Eugene, Godfred, Nicolas.

Though some (only one) of them are difficult people, they are, indeed, want us to learn to stand on our own feet and be a good teammate.

Through this, I learned that people lead differently. 

They are not the same person as our good leader Maxime, they are leader in the making, and I want to believe that.

Unhappy.

Rasa sedih dengan suasana di tempat kerja.

Tak tahu apa yang tak kena.

Aku ke.. orang lain ke..

Ada je benda yang tak best sejak dgn Maersk.

Put aside la semua benefit.

Tapi aku tak happy.

Banyak sangat regulation, banyak sgt sistem, banyak sangat benda nak kena attend. Nampak macam gah di mata org luar konon high standard sangat..

Tapi tak pun.

Buat costing in salah, tak buat lagilah salah.

Negative costing pun kena attack.

Benda seremeh personal objective pun kena pertikai.

I JUST WANT TO DO MY WORK.

Entahla mungkin expectation kat manager skrg pun hampas.. org yg mcm ikut je sistem nak apa. Aku tak happy. Cara dia highlight & attack org pun buat aku tak happy.

Mungkinla dia pun letih penat dgn kerenah birokrasi tapi aku lagi letih tgk dia tak reti pun nak jadi manager, sume benda dari management sekadar forward. Baik takyah forward.

Maybe aku sekadar xdpt terima yg Maxime bukan lagi manager kitorg.

Sabarlah kin.

When recognition goes to the wrong people.

 My work circle is small.

I work in the team of 5 in Malaysia.

Indonesia, 4. Vietnam, 4. Singapore i lost count but operationally 6-8. China each branch around 5. Thailand, 4. Management, maybe 5.

So our every month townhall usually consists of less than 50 people.

We know each other's work like reading a book. We know who work (really work) and who plays, and who only wayang and all talk.

So on yesterday's townhall, someone got award and recognition when I feel that she dont deserves that. Maybe company shouldn't even have that award pun.. because we don't know how they materialize the recognition. That lady dont deserve it. 

And another person's promotion announced as compliance PIC while my colleague Halim is doing all the paperworks and conduct materials for the whole MB team.

I started to think that dirty play is in now in our 'used to be' healthy environment.

Hey Managers. 

You can play favourite but you lost our respect - and this organization will not be last long if this is how you play the game.

I demand transparency!

And you finally arrived

Dear you.

Yesterday my friend asked, "why you".

I said,

"Because you reassure me that we will work in this together. You are hopeful, full of effort, a responsible and commited person".

And theres one thing unexplainable about you.

Before I met you, I have some fear of marriage or serious relationship. Either I am never enough for him or he never enough for me.. no matter how well off he is or from good family background, I always find them lacking to be my spouse.

But with you I feel just fine. Just enough. Everything fits. 

You fit into the definiton said in the qur'an,

“They are clothing for you and you are clothing for them.” [2:187]

Let us protect each other, beautify each other, covers each other and be comfortable in each other company. 

Towards eternity,

Terima kasih kerana memecahkan belenggu kesepian diri ini dan membuktikan bahawa manusia sebenarnya memang dijadikan berpasang-pasangan.

Truly yours,

Nora.