Thats the attention I wanna have. Something I miss.

Being an adult, with a lot of responsibilities (though i'm yet to have spouse or kids),
I, no longer care if people care about my wellbeing as long as I took care of my precious self.

My parent no longer care if I eat enough or sleep well. They have their own problem.

I have few friends leaving me for rearrangement of their life. Apparently because I am no longer an important part.

Thats okay though. I'm glad I was there to help.

And tonight someone parent's call their kid (of my age) asking their whereabouts, during our journey home at midnight time after hiking.

Of course this sound proposterous but to me this is something I wanna beg from my parent to do it.

I miss my sane parent.. A damn lot.

:(

This may be the sole reason why I feel sad whenever someone does pay attention to me and whatever I said.

Hujung Minggu yang penuh drama

Hidup kita bukan sinetron.

Tapi kalau dalam hidup ni kita terlalu banyak menonton sinetron, kita akan sukar membezakan realiti dan fantasi. Malah menyikapi masalah hidup kita sepertimana watak dalam drama menghadapi masalahnya.

Ini tidak betul.

Yang sebetulnya Allah memberi masalah dan ujian dalam hidup kita supaya kita kembali kepadaNya. Taat. Berserah. Menyerah diri dan bermuhasabah.

Jika itu tidak berlaku, ujian menjadi semakin memberat. Hal yang sepatutnya menjadi rahmah, akan bertukar menjadi beban perasaan, marah, benci dan tak takut dengan balasan Allah.

Ketika diuji, syaitan juga ikut bekerja merosakkan keyakinan-keyakinan kita kepada Allah.

Sekarang. Saya juga bersedih dengan apa yang berlaku... Tapi Allah Maha Tahu tentang aturan-aturanNya.

Kita kena selalu ingatkan diri yang Allah Maha Baik!

I warned Myself

I warned myself a lot.
Not to remember the person from my past

I dont know why lately it feels super hurtful than ever

Why?

Shawn Mendes - Fallin All In You

You are bringing out a different kind of me
There's no safety net that's underneath, I'm free
Falling all in
You fell for men who weren't how they appear
Trapped up on a tightrope now we're here, we're free
Falling all in you