Tidak bolehkah kehidupan menjadi seperti cerita yang ditulis?

Hakikatnya manusia lebih sukakan fantasi dan curang dengan realiti.

Apa yang kita fikirkan tak sama dengan apa yang ditakdirkan, namun kita selalu lupa bahawa itulah hal yang terbaik untuk kita.

Hakikatnya mimpi tidak mengubah apa-apa, ia hanyalah sangkaan kita yang dijadikan indah, meskipun hanya mimpi.

Seksanya menahan perasaan, hanya difahami oleh orang-orang yang banyak mengawal diri..daripada kekesalan

Namun kekesalan tetap terjadi..meskipun kita menahan perasaan.

Begitu banyak air mata yang tumpah..kerana kita terlalu mengasak diri mencapai mampu..mampu untuk menjadi lebih kuat dari apa yang orang tahu.

Tangisan, adalah teman baik manusia dewasa yang banyak berahsia.

Dan kita amat benci kehilangan kepercayaan terhadap orang yang kita paling sayang.

2018

Started 2018 with lots of shocked.
And happy news,too!

Just, where in the world are you, the dude that supposed to share with me all these bad and good times?

Are you already here? I cant see you..
Please send some signal, vibration is also accepted😂

Win some and lose some

My feelings now is somewhat similar to what I felt years ago when I was with MM.

The stagnance, losing of excitement, stressed and bored.  Feels like the love faded away.
The feeling of ungranted wish.
And betrayed.

Deep down my feelings told me what did I lose today, everyday.
I am not good at making friends, I lost every bit of myself day after day.

I did not know what I am winning,
I only know that I have my sisters to hold on to..
And to turn to Allah even if I'm sinned.
Thats the best winning in every losing.

Second time is never harder

At the age of 27,
I havent completed any of my dream..yet.
I only could say I grow wiser through days, but some of my social development become worst.

This is not the happy time in my life, I could say.
This is a tough times.. with losing lots of trust and 1 best friend in 2017,
I feel that this is really tough.

I didnt make new friends, I didnt trust people anymore.

I always believe that tough times is a good time to learn..
With a condition of good faith.

It is time of the cycle again...I need to go.