Win some and lose some

My feelings now is somewhat similar to what I felt years ago when I was with MM.

The stagnance, losing of excitement, stressed and bored.  Feels like the love faded away.
The feeling of ungranted wish.
And betrayed.

Deep down my feelings told me what did I lose today, everyday.
I am not good at making friends, I lost every bit of myself day after day.

I did not know what I am winning,
I only know that I have my sisters to hold on to..
And to turn to Allah even if I'm sinned.
Thats the best winning in every losing.