Second time is never harder

At the age of 27,
I havent completed any of my dream..yet.
I only could say I grow wiser through days, but some of my social development become worst.

This is not the happy time in my life, I could say.
This is a tough times.. with losing lots of trust and 1 best friend in 2017,
I feel that this is really tough.

I didnt make new friends, I didnt trust people anymore.

I always believe that tough times is a good time to learn..
With a condition of good faith.

It is time of the cycle again...I need to go.

Dah hujung tahun..bila nak kawin?

Ashikin masih relaks walaupun dah hujung tahun.

Sesungguhnye bayang jodoh pun kin tak nampak lagi. Sebabtu la relaks. Kalau dah tahu bilenye, harussla tak relaks dah kan.

Tapi.. adik2 dah gelabah. Ibu tak bagi diorang kawin dulu😂😂😂sebab kakak cantik diorang ni tak kawin lagi.

Kin dah tak boleh relaks.
Ikin dah boleh start cari calon suami sambil tulis blog dan scroll fb hari2 😅

Relaks.. rezeki Allah dah tulis, kerja kita hanyalah berusaha.
Kahwin bukan syarat masuk syurga, tapi kahwin adalah pendekat syurga. Taknak kahwin adalah penempah murka nabi.

Kahwin, bukan sebab trend. Kahwin, sebab nak teman hidup ke sana.. semua orang yang dulunya single sudahpun menjadi manusia double triple-so ikin dah takde teman😂

So friends out there. Kalau andalah jodoh saya, sila lah masuk meminang.

No. Phone abah saya 019274xxxx😆

Be brave

Its been awhile I feel like living a routine life.

Ever since I asked Michal for an extended job scope, I've been given bigger task at work, dealing with more difficult people(customers), handling more of curious and non-curious and sometimes irresponsible people(co-workers),

I suffered a medium-high level of stress.

I stopped talking too much, (Michal describe it as extreme-to-extreme), as I felt my voice is unheard of, I disliked being ignored.

I stopped caring for others too much, I learned to let-go. When some junior still did the same mistakes after too much nagging from me, I stopped talking.. I said, this is it. I am taking it no more- someone else who entitled to take the responsibility should be.

I remembered my friend Jason Ling told me that I should be ready to handle stress when I'm asking for a raise/changing job to get higher pay- the higher the pay means the higher the responsibility a.k.a higher stress.

Now MB is ready to teach me to train others which is a good thing but I myself should be prepared mentally whether or not people will failed me.

I gotta be brave.

I am heartbroken tonight.

I am a proud girl.
I used to show only the strong side of myself..but the girl faded away now, she is no longer here.

I am heartbroken tonight.. because I tried my best doing every possible things to do my job well.. but someone else screwed it.


I am not that tough. Giving my best effort i felt bad that people get what i want effortlessly.

I am heartbroken tonight.. because I used to lean to someone's back in the past, asking every possible solution to my problems like doing maths. But life is no longer as easy as algorithm.. Now I have someone did the same to me, leaning on my back, I feel really bad-