Be brave

Its been awhile I feel like living a routine life.

Ever since I asked Michal for an extended job scope, I've been given bigger task at work, dealing with more difficult people(customers), handling more of curious and non-curious and sometimes irresponsible people(co-workers),

I suffered a medium-high level of stress.

I stopped talking too much, (Michal describe it as extreme-to-extreme), as I felt my voice is unheard of, I disliked being ignored.

I stopped caring for others too much, I learned to let-go. When some junior still did the same mistakes after too much nagging from me, I stopped talking.. I said, this is it. I am taking it no more- someone else who entitled to take the responsibility should be.

I remembered my friend Jason Ling told me that I should be ready to handle stress when I'm asking for a raise/changing job to get higher pay- the higher the pay means the higher the responsibility a.k.a higher stress.

Now MB is ready to teach me to train others which is a good thing but I myself should be prepared mentally whether or not people will failed me.

I gotta be brave.

I am heartbroken tonight.

I am a proud girl.
I used to show only the strong side of myself..but the girl faded away now, she is no longer here.

I am heartbroken tonight.. because I tried my best doing every possible things to do my job well.. but someone else screwed it.


I am not that tough. Giving my best effort i felt bad that people get what i want effortlessly.

I am heartbroken tonight.. because I used to lean to someone's back in the past, asking every possible solution to my problems like doing maths. But life is no longer as easy as algorithm.. Now I have someone did the same to me, leaning on my back, I feel really bad-

Hidup dan penderitaan

Hidup ini dipenuhi penderitaan yang tak ada habisnya.
Itu, dirasakan oleh orang-orang yang hilang arah tuju dalam pelayarannya, seperti aku.
Kadang bukanlah tujuan itu hilang, cuma ia kabur dan samar dek fatamorgana dunia.
Kejelasan matlamat hidup,
Dari mana kita datang,
Ke mana kita akan pergi,
Dan untuk apa kita dijadikan, akan membuat kita rasa lebih bertuah dan beruntung memiliki nyawa ini, melajukan langkah kita yang selama ini acuh tak acuh dan sambil lewa.

Allah tidak menjadikan sesuatu itu dengan saja-saja.
Andai kita merasa derita menjalani hidup ini, maka ketahuilah,
Bahawa penderitaan hanyalah dirasai oleh orang-orang yang tidak mengenali-Nya.

What Michal say

Ini bukan post bongkak bangga diri tau kin..

Ini post penilaian diri. Dan motivasi diri.
Boss saye dah tahu kemampuan daya untuk pergi jauh, tapi..taknak lepaskan.
Camno? 😅

Well. Saya tanya dia.. adakah dia rasa saya mempunyai ciri2 sedemikian:

Dia ambil masa sehari untuk reply...

Thank you, for growing me to be a better person, Michal.

I am thankful to have deugro as my workplace, where I spent quarter of life here, every day😃