Thank you, KWE

I sent out the love letter today.

Now I know that to release yourself from a giant company is not that easy. Especially you are special, i may say.

First, your boss will behold you.
"what is the problem?" - and this is the chance to speak up your says & what is your disappoinment.

Second, All the point that made you re-thinking, all the sweet talks, honey, sugar, dates, is in the room. You will be praised like an angel, for all the hard work... At this moment, please do not melt because you are good and will be good without the praises as well.

Third, boss will ask you what they could do to make you stay: you can request the team shuffle, the better salary, whatever that made you stays.

Make up your mind and go for it, no matter what is the result will be.

Counteroffer.

background melody: Numb by Linkin Park

And the world knows that this little girl happen to have some tragedy at work - so she has no more reason to stay.

I know that my company currently restructuring, and my release tender could be a headache to them. A big one.

And this guy from another department saying he is like an elder brother to me, suddenly pinch in asking whether I think I have done enough.

Yes.

"But you shouldn't say that as a newbie".

Easy. My opinion doesnt count at all in here. You made my day, you made my decision easier.

And please, do not again bring up the 5k shipment's failure issue, because.. I, as a newbie should emphasize that my stupidity is a sign of your failure to educate me.

And. Again, my disappoinment on the management's unfairness have cost me big time demotivation. I am not sure whether someone have badmouthed me at the back but seems like I have become the ugliest stupid girl despite of all the good job I've done.

Thank you, KWE.

Life is more understandable this way. Now I can answer quickly why nice people die faster - because they are too good that God loves them.

A princess needs a rest

One after another events,...

In life, I always demand that I like to feel wanted, needed and belongs to. It feels good to be in place, adapt, and make yourself at home.

When I feel almost home at KWE, they take it away, saying its not your home so I need to behave. And nobody at home says that this little visitor is so good and capable to be residents.

Learning have been such a philosophy in career world, I know. And going back to square one, Ashikin...

Sesungguhnya

Sesungguhnya, aku tak mampu berhutang.......

Sejak muda, saya kurang gemar berhutang. Kalau adapun, akan cepat berusaha nak bayar.. semakin meningkat dewasa, saya berusaha belajar. Di peringkat universiti, saya memohon izin ibu abah untuk menanggung pengajian saya tanpa saya berhutang.

Baru-baru ini, saya memohon pinjaman bank untuk membeli kereta. Allah izin, kereta yang saya mahukan dihentikan pengeluarannya - menyebabkan down payment asal atau rebate yang ditawarkan pada awal tawar menawar tidak mampu saya bayar.

Saya tidak mahu mengambil risiko meminjam- biarlah saya berdikit2 mengumpul wang.

Memikirkan tentang kepada siapa saya ingin meminjam membuat hati terasa sempit.. saya tak mahu hubungan kekeluargaan menjadi rapuh, atau kawan melihat saya sebagai orang suka meminjam.

Biarlah hidup susah sikit tapi jiwa lapang, hidup ini pinjaman Allah tapi kita sikitpun tak rasa sempit, kan? kerana cinta Allah itu sifatnya melapangkan, mewah hidup dengan rahmat Allah.