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 I have never had a big blow in relationships in my life, simply because I never had one.

The only disappoinment I had before was only with my parents. But parent-child relationship is different, we always bounced back and eventually loved limitlessly.

But this one hits me hard.

Now if people ask me how disappoinments of love feels like,

I will describe it as, 

"you felt like being hit by a truck but you still alive."

And the numbness pain, you have to bear with it for a moment. Maybe for a while.