kahwinla cepat?

 i dont have the motivation to "kahwin cepat"

I know that marrying is a fitrah, and sunnah.

I know I am looking for someone to marry. But I dont rush.

Two days ago while sending my car to coating & polish, I took a GrabCar to AEON Nilai, just to do work there. The GrabCar uncle is so friendly & kinda shocked when I as a woman do the car care. He asked,

"umur berapa cik?"

"33"

"Dah kahwin belum?" staple question, I guess.

"belum cik. tu pasalla jaga kereta je haha"

"Kene cari cepat tu cik. 33 dah uii"

Then pakcik is like silent himself, worrying that he might go overboard. InsyaAllah, pakcik..

Well I am back to square one. open for a search again, though my heart is broken into pieces due to my own doing. 

For now let me recreate the smiles on my mother's face. I wanna see that.