Most evergreen sad song

 I had enough sad songs.

But this remains evergreen in my heart, Teri Mehbooba.

I dont know since when unrequitted love has become my most acceptable genre

And this song played in my head since morning

Indiaaa aku datang!

 So. we booked an adventure, as a team.

Tak tahulah ya. Kesyukuran tu sebenarnya membuka banyak sangat pintu, sampai kau rasa macam masyaAllah banyaknya kebaikan yang Allah beri, sampai kau tak sempat2 nak bersyukur, Allah bagi lagi dan lagi.

Dan kau rasa malu sangat kalau tak syukur. Atau kau buat dosa.

Kesyukuran ni kesan dia bukan sekarang, kau memang tak nampak. Tapi kau akan nampak buahnya, hasilnya kemudian, mungkin 5 tahun akan datang, mungkin 20 tahun akan datang, kau tak tahu.

memang betullah kata Allah, bila kamu bersyukur, Aku tambahkan lagi nikmat.

So siapalah kita untuk tak yakin dengan ketentuanNya, kan?

Kisahnya..

Masa aku baru join company sekarang, aku sorang. Company takde apa2. Zero. Ada satu dua client, bolehlah nak isi periuk nasi. Boss sentiasa takde. Takde staff lain selain colleague kat Singapore & global. Dan banyak benda yang annoying, semua benda slow. Daripada dah terbiasa buat shipment 15-20 file selambak sebulan, jadi 2-3 file sebulan.

Aku berhenti? tak. abah kata aku kena berani dengan pilihan yang aku buat.

Masatu aku syukur je dgn apa yg ada. Cuba suka dengan environment company baru. Tak plan pun nak stay lama, aku cuma nak jadikan company ni sebahagian dari journey hidup aku.

So sekarang aku mula nampak development company ni.

Team yang mula berhasil, boss yang semakin bersemangat dan ada potensi naik pangkat ke regional position, dan skillful team mula dipandang oleh project forwarder yang lain. 

on pur 4th year together, company ajak pergi India - untuk hadir wedding teammate & jalan2.

dah nak cukup 5 tahun, jari jemari dah mula gatal scroll2 linkedin & Jobstreet, cari peluang nak lompat.

Company pun dah kena beli dengan Maersk, aku rasa vibes dia takkan sama.

Mungkin aku stay lagi setahun. Kemudian aku pergi ke tempat baru. Atau buka company -why not kan. 

Cita-cita aku, aku taknak stay dalam industri. Aku nak jadi consultant, atau lecturer, ajar orang tentang logistics, projects and freight forwarding - aku nak tengok industri yang bersih dari kekotoran rasuah dan kronisme.

Sebabnya, Rasulullah juga seorang logistician.

Allahumma Solli 'ala Sayiidina Muhammad.

Salam Maulidurrasul 1444H yang terlewat. Tanpa mengenal Rasulullah, kita pasti bukan manusia yang berakhlak sekarang.

Menjadi Perempuan Baik itu Mahal Harganya

In the middle of my age, (well I dont know yet if this is middle but usually 30s is middle age)

I have come to a conclusion that being rightful as a woman is super difficult and expensive.

You have to strained yourself from talking too much or over the boundaries with others, especially men.

Talking to married men caused affairs, apparently.

And attracted jealousy from their women, and you become the caused and source of quarrel, hurting other women.

You dont want that, trust me.

Your environment is not helping, you have to help yourself. Environment is more towards bringing you down than raising you up to be a better person.

Nobody cares if you are weak. But everyone cares when you made mistakes.

The worldly temptation is too much, you have to learn how to make it small or make it feel like they are useless. 

Honestly, honest people are not that many, around you, or to you.

Other than wanting to see you grow, more people either wanting to see you crumble, or wanted something from you...but optimistic me wanted to believe differently.

The world need kind women, even though they are not a safe place for us.

Because... we want to be in the most expensive place in afterlife!

The Trust Level in Teamwork & Leaderships

 We ate lunch together today, me and boss. Over his favourite dishes.

of course when we talk to each other over meals, we talk about personal views and plans.

Since we recently merged with Maersk, I asked him whats gonna happen and what is his plan. 

He said, "You will be the first to know my plan".

Well yeah. 

We build that trust long time ago when we start building this office up to this point.

Its not an easy work to build someone's trust, but I keep hearing people return good words about myself from him. Which, to me, very inspiring

He took care of our team's welfare, and very much caring as a boss towards our team.

I asked him once, if I ever receive good offer, will he allow me to leave the company?

He said, "Only if the offer is something that you should not let go"

I respect good boss, and good leadership makes another good leaders!