Compulsory Reject

Antara skil yang seorang single wajib ada ialah membezakan lelaki baik dan lelaki gatal.

Dan lelaki yang wajib ditolak adalah lelaki yang pakai kopiah, laki orang dan menggunakan ayat-ayat agama untuk kepentingan diri.

I am still looking for it

Theres time recently where I broke down.

I am so tired.
Maybe I'm not busy enough.
I dont know the source of this unhappiness, I dont know

I am just terribly sick.
This headache is killing me.
I am angry everyday, and I didn't vent the anger out, I cant.

To the reader of this blog, thank you for reading.
You give me hope that theres someone who still read my trashy thoughts, the real me.

Well this songs is telling a lot... about how I feel & what I do when I did go to places, songs, movies & stories I ever discussed with some particular person.

You actually never moved on because it is like the ghost in your mind. You can lie to everyone but not yourself.

Damn i feel it

Dilarang mencarut di blog ini.
Eh damn tu mencarot ek

Ah kau sendiri tulis sendiri pening.

Well i feel that lonely feelings now.
Ever since the betrayal feels real
And since my parent doesn't really care for me
My friends busy with whatever life they are having

Damn i feel it now.

My teacher used to tell me that someday I will feel the emptiness.
I did not expect it will be this bad oh no..

I dont know what to hold in anymore.
It is even worst when I am sick but nobody cares :(
Some new people try caring for me but i just cant accept it. I deny more people than accepting them openly and genuinely.

Short history.

So last weekend I attended my second cousin's wedding, Shahin.

We have short history together, where he once asked whether we can go serious, and I said no on the dot.

Little did I know that rejecting people on the spot is not so nice, not the proper way. I should say "give time", even though I know the answer already, right away.

My disagreement was solely because I dont think we are meant for each other, no special feelings and I only see him as cousin.

Invited  & attending to his wedding, is an honor.
I want him to know that our cousin-ship did not end despite the 'short history'. Nothing to be hide, we still can talk about life as how we used to be.