messy!

When I was in deugro, I can't control myself from anger if job went messy...

And here it is! it is even more.

I gotta learn the system faster, catch up & do my best!😕

Ashikin, bersemangatlah!😜

Lost

I lost lots of confidence recently.

I keep telling myself to be strong, asked Allah to give me lots of strength during this tough time, as I am literally weak inside, despite I may appear to be strong..

My most trusted, respected person in the world appear to be lying to my most beloved person. Hence Allah is telling me that human have their own weakness, even if they are your most trusted.

Allah want me to know that Most Trusted, The Greatest is Him and Him only.

Everytime I feel strong and great with something without referring back to Allah, Allah will take it obnoxiously... Like how Allah has taken few of my best people away from me, make my parents argue, turns down my leader from his position, etc etc.

For mukmeen, life is only a tests.
I gotta have lots of faith as a believer, that Allah is The Most Gracious that the tests we are having is small compared to His Mercy...

new job!

Here I am, starting fresh & new again!

Its been a week since I started my new job..
I am all excited with this, and stay positive!

Theres no one I will argue with, so more and more I am dealing with bigger things,
I have to struggle working with my hard self

I indeed missed deugro days but current job is what I wanted to do: learn more!

Hesitated to leave

I will be sending my resignation tomorrow. To deugro, the place I grew myself a lot.

This is the place I learn my true strength, with the help of my colleagues, and my enemy.
I learn to play a lot, but I also finds joy in giving my full commitment at work (well I always did!)

Thanks to Allah, I am able to go through these 3 years, with tears and joy. Well I did cried sometimes, due to work-stress & too tired I can't handle myself. My early days with deugro was really tough, I even counted days to see how much time have passed until I reach my target to leave this place. I planned to stay only for 2 years but upon reaching 2 years deugro hold me back and asked me to stay. Michal convinced me that the company I was going was no better than Kintetsu.

I love this place, as much I loved my pasts work place. I did feel hesitated, a lot, but my colleague, Aldrin said,
" of course you'll feel hesitant of leaving something you feel comfortable of. Think of it as your first times.. Once you moved on, you'll feel much better, more adventures await, ahead!"

To kak Lily, I will always treasured of her taking care of me. Thank you for taking care of me since day 1, work-wise and non-workwise. Please take care of your health, I'm not always there to help around anymore.

To Aldrin, I thank you very much for introducing me to such a good company (hope so!). I'll be busy on my days ahead, wont have time to drive you around anymore. Thank you, for being so patient with my attitude.. You've been teaching me that patience have its own virtue.. I'm still young and have lots of things to learn!

To Roman and Lee Kee, you both been the hard part in my deugro history. Most of the times you are the reason I transform myself from such a kind young lady to such a monster who give people names. You both made me discover the ugly part of myself, and also the great part. Stop being so jerky and please find happiness of your own..

and finally, to my boss Michal,
you've been a great leader.
If leadership could be transferable, I would wish you transferred your great leadership to me. But no, I had to discover that myself. I was a trash before, but you know how to lift people's spirit and let them know they are gems (not germs!). I will always wish you happiness and joy, and I can't be thankful enough to have you in my life as my leader. I hope we can stay in touch as a friend, and remember that I promised you an invitation to my wedding day..

for record; Within this month, I have undergo 4 interviews, all successful.
I did not declined all yet, but MB is the best offer I can't let go.