Jika saya buat perangai

Ini adalah entri penilaian tentang diri sendiri. Betapa saya sangat selfish.

Sepanjang hidup ini, saya mengajar diri menjadi orang yang independent, optimis, berani dan proaktif.

Sikap dan perangai ini, telah banyak membantu saya hidup dan bergaul dengan masyarakat. Ia juga mempengaruhi cara saya bekerja dan berfikir.

Jadi..

saya cuma terfikir, andai saya buat perangai, malas dan sambil lewa, degil dan menyusahkan orang, saya akan berpeluang diberhentikan tak?

Sekarang saya rasa macam.. kalau saya buat macamtu, betapa amat saya pentingkan diri.

But.. who cares?

am I significant?

Yes. You are, to yourself.

You are selfish, kin.

How hilarious life is.

After getting back from Turkey, I found another wisdom.

I get used to the question:
Best x Turki?
Bestnya dia pi Turki lama-lama..
Seronok x jadi orang Turki?

My replied has always smiles with the mumblings about foods. I could not define their definition of "best-ness",  ecause I have been through ups and downs while being abroad, alone.

Then now I remembered asking most of my sahibah on how good is marriage life

And their replied is always with faces reaction, saying that I should be getting into it then I can know how it is.

So after this I should reply, like, "I cried the whole months craving for foods".

Life is hilarious. Sometimes it feels as good as heaven. Sometimes it feels like hell.. That was what I named my blog after.

Myy...How should you ask such questions, fellas?

After arrival

Here I am, once again!

Alhamdulillah, sungguhpun bernafas di bumi Turki itu sungguh menyamankan, saya tetap merasa bahagia, dapat kembali ke Malaysia-my own country, my own home, friends, bed, books..

berada di tempat orang membuat saya tenang dan bebas... bebas menjadi diri sendiri. Berada di tempat sendiri, selepas satu pengembaraan yang sekejap, membuat saya rasa amat menghargai apa yang saya ada-negara saya, keluarga saya.

dan, saya mengalami jetlag yang sangat teruk sepanjang minggu. Saya tidur dan tidur sahaja walaupun setelah cukup rehat.

Biasanya saya hanya mabuk kenderaan..

Balik dari Turki, saya memborong banyak buku dari big bad wolf. I have to start reading noowww.

Chiao~

What Turkey have made me

For 70 days in Turkey,

my smile have become warm and gentle.
I keep telling positive things to myself.
I talk with Allah more.
My brain keep thinking for others.
I became more friendlier than ever.
I met a lot of (handsome) guys and girls and made them my friends.
I even (think) that i lose a friend but to think again, best friend stays. The one who gone can't be a jerk.
I did not talk to my parents even for a second, but i do send them a lot of prayers.
I decided things to do for my life.
I finished reading one book i love and getting another two ongoing.
I have become more patriotics than ever, remembering everything about Malaysia to have myself easily explains to another nationalities i met in Turkey.
I made super lot of friends, from China, Nigeria, South Africa, Costa Rica, Australia, Korea, Turkey and Middle East region.

Well. what I like most in this journey is that everything goes great through thick and thin, and everything do reflects me.

I think that is where the gentle smiles come from.

So,

if there is someone asking; "how do you look so calm, how do you wear that smiles on your face" (i do have been asked these questions)

my replied be like;

keep believing that Allah will help you through everything.. because theres always rainbow after rain, insyaAllah.