Menjadi Perempuan Baik itu Mahal Harganya

In the middle of my age, (well I dont know yet if this is middle but usually 30s is middle age)

I have come to a conclusion that being rightful as a woman is super difficult and expensive.

You have to strained yourself from talking too much or over the boundaries with others, especially men.

Talking to married men caused affairs, apparently.

And attracted jealousy from their women, and you become the caused and source of quarrel, hurting other women.

You dont want that, trust me.

Your environment is not helping, you have to help yourself. Environment is more towards bringing you down than raising you up to be a better person.

Nobody cares if you are weak. But everyone cares when you made mistakes.

The worldly temptation is too much, you have to learn how to make it small or make it feel like they are useless. 

Honestly, honest people are not that many, around you, or to you.

Other than wanting to see you grow, more people either wanting to see you crumble, or wanted something from you...but optimistic me wanted to believe differently.

The world need kind women, even though they are not a safe place for us.

Because... we want to be in the most expensive place in afterlife!

The Trust Level in Teamwork & Leaderships

 We ate lunch together today, me and boss. Over his favourite dishes.

of course when we talk to each other over meals, we talk about personal views and plans.

Since we recently merged with Maersk, I asked him whats gonna happen and what is his plan. 

He said, "You will be the first to know my plan".

Well yeah. 

We build that trust long time ago when we start building this office up to this point.

Its not an easy work to build someone's trust, but I keep hearing people return good words about myself from him. Which, to me, very inspiring

He took care of our team's welfare, and very much caring as a boss towards our team.

I asked him once, if I ever receive good offer, will he allow me to leave the company?

He said, "Only if the offer is something that you should not let go"

I respect good boss, and good leadership makes another good leaders!

Against Online Dating App

 Well Ashikin is officially against online dating app.

Biarlah cari belahan jiwa secara organik je.

Ok pengaruh rakan sebaye la ni suh aku cari jodoh online. Bff aku suruh sbb adik dia jumpa jodoh online. Hamjad. 

Mana je yg xpernah try. Baituljannah? Baitulmuslim? Fb dating?  Semua tu...hmph takpayahlah. Not for me.

Well slalunye aku biar jela apps² tu ada. Tapi. Most of the time aku reply mesej pastu aku malas pastu aku tido. Kdg org² kat dlm tu aneh². 

In the end aku yg letih nak layan soalan diorg. Ramai je yg baik² tp mostly xsesuai dgn aku. Ada pula yg otak mereng, otak kuning, biru dan lain² lagi..

Statement terbaru yg paling hampeh aku pernah dgr dari seorg ex-MRSM, "sy ni open minded, nak cari yg xbaik sgt, xminat yg solehah². Jadi jelah diri sendiri".

Bila aku tanya jadi diri sendiri tu ape?

Dia jawab, "Entah".

kalau aku cakap dia bodoh mesti dia meradang kan.

Officially I believe that I'm too busy to do dating or learning to know new people who will waste my time.

Dah. Jgn suruh aku cari jodoh online. 

Hey, i come back.

 It is unfair for me to grieve over some thing I'm so out of line to ask time to turn back to love only me.

Life is meant for the disappoinment, no matter how much love you receive or how much money you made.

Its about how strong your heart could sustain during difficult times.

Those tough times only made me stronger and more stubborn.

Changed me, in a way I never think of I could be.

But thats okay.

Lets let this go. - Why dont you be you and I'll be me