Hesitated to leave

I will be sending my resignation tomorrow. To deugro, the place I grew myself a lot.

This is the place I learn my true strength, with the help of my colleagues, and my enemy.
I learn to play a lot, but I also finds joy in giving my full commitment at work (well I always did!)

Thanks to Allah, I am able to go through these 3 years, with tears and joy. Well I did cried sometimes, due to work-stress & too tired I can't handle myself. My early days with deugro was really tough, I even counted days to see how much time have passed until I reach my target to leave this place. I planned to stay only for 2 years but upon reaching 2 years deugro hold me back and asked me to stay. Michal convinced me that the company I was going was no better than Kintetsu.

I love this place, as much I loved my pasts work place. I did feel hesitated, a lot, but my colleague, Aldrin said,
" of course you'll feel hesitant of leaving something you feel comfortable of. Think of it as your first times.. Once you moved on, you'll feel much better, more adventures await, ahead!"

To kak Lily, I will always treasured of her taking care of me. Thank you for taking care of me since day 1, work-wise and non-workwise. Please take care of your health, I'm not always there to help around anymore.

To Aldrin, I thank you very much for introducing me to such a good company (hope so!). I'll be busy on my days ahead, wont have time to drive you around anymore. Thank you, for being so patient with my attitude.. You've been teaching me that patience have its own virtue.. I'm still young and have lots of things to learn!

To Roman and Lee Kee, you both been the hard part in my deugro history. Most of the times you are the reason I transform myself from such a kind young lady to such a monster who give people names. You both made me discover the ugly part of myself, and also the great part. Stop being so jerky and please find happiness of your own..

and finally, to my boss Michal,
you've been a great leader.
If leadership could be transferable, I would wish you transferred your great leadership to me. But no, I had to discover that myself. I was a trash before, but you know how to lift people's spirit and let them know they are gems (not germs!). I will always wish you happiness and joy, and I can't be thankful enough to have you in my life as my leader. I hope we can stay in touch as a friend, and remember that I promised you an invitation to my wedding day..

for record; Within this month, I have undergo 4 interviews, all successful.
I did not declined all yet, but MB is the best offer I can't let go.

Shopping with mum is not a good thing..

...especially when you are tho one who pays.

All these while we did grocery shopping, where we make thr ling list and stick our buying based on that. Normally it wouldn't exceed MYR 300.

However last night my elder sis was unable to join me thus I take ibu to go grocery shopping together..

I let her takes whatever she likes, things that arent even on the list

And it costs double the budget😂😅😨

Well its once in awhile thing so... I kinda have to act cooool...

Agaknye nilah perasaan makbapak kite dulu2 kan setiap kali keluar belanja.

Cool di luar, rabak di dalam...😂

3 things in a day

1. Earlier today, this morning, deugro have been awarded Arkema project in Kerteh and I am the key person to begin with.

Thank you deugro. For believing me. I started seeing the ladder and lights in my way, but it will be too bad without a good leader. And I cant live every day with complaining machine..

2. Finally I got reply from Martin Bencher after 2 weeks (yay!). Thanks to my best buddies recommendation email (oh I love him a lot!)

3. Charlotte recommended me to 2 companies; and I managed to go to both interviews, and hired for the job!

Unfortunately i cant go to both, currently I declined one i Klang (yesterday), and rethinking for the other one.

I have prayers to doo...
Syukur, yaAllah!

[NASIHAT KEPADA DIRI]

1. Antara nasihat berguna pernah saya dapatkan dalam hidup ini, dan menjadi pegangan hidup saya untuk selalu cekal dan berani ialah,

"Kita kena selalu sedia menghadapi keadaan yang kita tak suka" - al fadhil Sir Fadhli MD

2. Bilamana saya merasa malas mengemas, (perempuan selalu merasakan lipat baju tu perkara leceh), murobbi kesayangan saya di UUM- Ummi Norsiah rahimahullah (moga Allah selalu menyayangi Ummi) - bangun awal untuk kemas rumah

3. Saya dan seangkatan rombongan rehlah pernah tersesat semasa jungle trekking, ke lembah pacat. Setelah berpatah balik, kami terhenti di tempat salah seorang dari kami membuang sampah dan tidak dikutip semula. Sejak itu- saya tidak pernah berani membuang sampah merata-rata.


Well saya menulis panjang kali ini kerana terlalu upset dengan apa yang sedang berlaku kepada team kami- Boss saya tidak semena-mena seperti layang-layang putus tali, datang kerja macam mayat hidup

dia membuatkan saya tahu bahawa ketua tidak patut menunjukkan emosi berlebihan, sungguhpun mempunyai krisis peribadi dengan orang atasan mahupun syarikat.

Saya merasa begitu bosan melihat sandiwara, drama swasta setiap hari.
Saya suka kerja saya, tapi saya tidak sanggup bekerja dengan orang gila.
Dan saya juga kecewa, kerana claim saya terdedah kepada orang lain- saya berasa tidak selamat lagi dan berada di samping orang-orang yang tidak cerdik mengemudi sebuah syarikat kecil..

d.ship, sinking ship

Telah tibanya, masa untuk saya pergi segera...