One down

My motivation to work has drained, as my good friend & teammate Chan is going to flew away- resigned- next week.

I was asking him to behold, early of this year, telling him that I wont change my job for a year, but he cant wait.

Man. He made me really sick that man nowadays cant stand the pain of working, being responsible and going through tough times. Chan, my elder brother, my best friend, yadayadayada.

I dont like the feelings of lack-of-teammates, but at the same time I wish, really wish that he will be happy on the path he chose. Work is work, and, he has feelings no more.

Since nobody cares to listen to what I feel,  now, I will walk my path alone and again, do things my way. and will be successful.

Oh so lonely.

Photograph II

Remember when I told u that I missed my little giggles all the time?

I did, yesterday. for absailing training.
And take pictures out of it.
I realized that I'm only happy being around prcious sahibah. They made me happy and warm. Their feelings are so true.

It get hard sometimes but it keep me feel alive.

"We keep this love in a photograph
We made these memories for ourselves
Where our eyes are never closing
Hearts are never broken
Times forever frozen still"

Angel cums Devil

My father once asked..

"why Nora, we human are much better than angels and much evil than devil?"

I replied,

"because we human have been awarded with brain to think, heart to choose and nafs to balance. Choosing to be bad causes us to be even worst than shaytaan, choosing goodness causes us to be better than angels.

As angels are made to obey and Iblis are made to be deviant,turned&treason as their fitrah, but we are made to choose."

keep learning, Nora.

Photograph

My working days now are not so bad, alhamdulillah.

I got to have an interesting experience of going to wharf, see project cargo and the management of it, the shipment in the bare eyes, the vessels, the person in charge..

My nights filled with classes and my reading session because i have my own targets. And feel a little suffocated sometimes, because I still cry in my leisure time.

I still being harrased by my stupid colleague at work who hate me for no reason. She complaints all day about me just because she hate me, doesn't like me for being so happy around. And I play along making her feels more irritated by doing my job well.

All thats meant to me from deugro is just because I believe Allah has planned goodness for me, my istikharah feels like working out really well. I did have good omen stepping to deugro over KWE, even though my early days feel like..hell..

When I focus on the good thing, push myself, and comes the boss guiding me all the way, and senior at work who help me through stupidity.

I am glad and happy, that I take bad things in positive way, even I can't help feeling irritated.

"Love can hurt sometimes,
but its the only thing i know
it is something that makes us feel alive"

I wanted to share my boss message to me & keep my spirit up: