The changes

Somehow I feels like I am completely different person from the pasts.

I didnt greet people so much anymore.
I complaints at the grocery store for counter prices are different than shown.
I skip kenduri and programs and promises whenever I feel like it.

I feel I am a little less patient now.

I am not ready for this, man, what happen to me??

:(

Lust and Love

Growing up and old, meeting people and develops feelings, sometimes could make us confuse in deciding whats best for us. We sometimes even distracted with what we dont have while we could be happy with what we already have.

Things could be mixing so sometimes we cant determine what is actually is. We even confused lust with love where it is interrelated. But both are different entity.

Loving, means, knowing all the do's and dont's, having to know every single details of the beloved. While lust, is nowhere. No.where and now.here. It doesnt have any deep meaning.

My root name, in arabic, is Ishq. It could be lust, it could be love. Depends, on what you want me to be, in your life. I could be lovely and choose to be it~

Meeting with Ling

I happen to meet and having dinner with Ling, my ex classmate back in UUM today.

He noticed me through my LinkedIn profile, knowing my company is deugro Projects.

He is and was my good classmate & a thoughtful person, someone I cherish in our class. We both are stars of the class~

I was stunned at first when he notified me because I personally did not remember this fellas at all. He said he remembers me because of my character.

My character is kinda somethingg.. I met few people who remembers me because of my character - but mostly people remember me because of my face; cute & warmth!

haha entri bongkak.

Yesterday our boss came back from his long vacay, and first thing he did in the morning was....defending me from being accused of rudeness!

Thank you, boss. I felt apprreciated~~

Have you ever loved, all your life?

I am currently reading "Reflections of a Man" written by Amari Soul.

Stated in this book.. that.. a man will truly pours his money for what he loves. If he were to find out cheating, his woman would found out from his expenses.

My mum is considered lucky that my father is a stingy & not-so-financial-wealth person. He has never even spent pennies on expensive foods-even allergies on chickens so our family have very less consumption on expensive food.

we cant order pitza home, nor KFC, either.
so I believe my mum never been cheated at her back because my father doesnt have extra money to spend on woman other than me, my sisters and my mum.

I have been having loved all my life, so, why worry?